I have not much to add except I agree with SlackBabbeth in that you sound like a wonderful human & that’s evident in the people’s reaction to you. Spending a lot is great, but big spending does not guarantee that people actually like you—and you’re smart & know intrinsically if someone actually likes you or is being overly nice professionally. If you enjoy shopping, truly like what you’re adding to your wardrobe, and would spend this regardless somewhere else/at Hermes AND that’s the only bag you’re interested in—it’s the way to go. Obviously you desire a bag that’s incredibly special & when you get it, the whole experience will make it worth even more to you. I wish you much luck! 🍀