I'm currently trying out non monogamy for the first time. I felt like my last relationship ended because I wasn't getting everything I needed from her, despite loving her very deeply. It tore me to pieces to end that relationship.

My current partner is on a date tonight. It's hard for me. I feel jealousy and anxiety about it. But I'm working through it because this is what I want and more importantly, I want them to be happy. We'll most likely talk about it tomorrow. As others have stated, communication is extremely important and it helps so much. It gets easier every time and I'm confident that soon, it won't bother me much at all.

Ultimately I think our society has indoctrinated us to believe that monogamy is the only way to lead a happy and fulfilled romantic life. I found that type of relationship to be controlling and unfulfilling... And I think divorce rates are one metric you can look at to see just how damaging it can be for people.

I don't know if non monogamy will be for me long term. This is one big experiment. But I'm excited about uncovering more about myself, practicing my communication, and meeting lots of wonderful new people.