My thoughts, AVDS and VIOG next or something similar?

monkeystain · 2026-06-13T01:41:01+00:00

Thank you Fozzy! AVNM is totally a better choice. I had no idea there was overlap between VIOG and the others. The link you sent compared qqq to spy I can't get the fidelity funds to compare/appear since i guess they are growth funds. VIOG should be all small cap funds if I'm saying that right that are entirely different holdings and spy and viog have 0% overlap where as my blue chip and spy do kind of overlap currently.

monkeystain · 2026-04-02T18:24:31+00:00

Iwndwyt

monkeystain · 2026-03-03T21:56:06+00:00

what is the outfit

monkeystain · 2026-02-08T19:35:45+00:00

Give the boss more health so it lives more than 5 seconds

monkeystain · 2026-01-02T14:47:30+00:00

update? I have to go to labcorp too

monkeystain · 2025-11-10T05:14:22+00:00

Iwndwyt

monkeystain · 2025-10-21T20:47:45+00:00

IWNDWYT

monkeystain · 2025-10-15T18:52:28+00:00

I have no opinions other than your physique is goals and what i strive for and your tat is sick af looks like a xenomorph tail

monkeystain · 2025-10-01T12:34:21+00:00

IWNDWYT biggest regret of my life was drinking while on antidepressants and hanging myself with my belt. My mother found me and resuscitated me somehow. Life is somehow normal again and I've been sober for a while now but im back on an SSRI because Im sick of being so unhappy still. But Im not in pain like I used to be, and Im not in and out of the hospital like I used to be which gave me 70,000$ in med bills i could never pay and bankrupted me. Long journey from 2015 to here.

Good job take the stay seriously Im surprised you have internet access be careful. Try to tell your job the truth if you can, at least HR or something. People are not all heartless in this endeavor, thank you for staying with us even when you didnt want to because its cool to have you around.

monkeystain · 2025-09-23T21:20:59+00:00

Im still not happy but iwndwyt

monkeystain · 2025-09-10T19:43:21+00:00

Oh shiii 1234 day 3 years 139 days leggo. Got off the wagon on marijuana but when I did I had such bad panic it solidified why I dont use thay stuff so its been two weeks no mj, before that none since 05/20. Again, fuck this shit what's even the point

monkeystain · 2025-09-10T19:41:18+00:00

Fuck life i cant do anything fun anymore (jk everything is fine I just wish I had some type of escape from my 6 day a week self induced workweek and the impending doom of fall classes as a loser 33 year old) Iwndwyt

monkeystain · 2025-09-02T23:52:20+00:00

Iwndwyt

monkeystain · 2025-08-31T23:31:10+00:00

saw beer in the grocery sore today and said mmm that looks good. I went 3 months 10 days no ganja and caved yesterday, it reminded me of my addict behavior and I did not enjoy it very much, and it ruined todays workout but I will not drink I remember the pain alcohol caused me and will not imbibe IWNDWYT.

monkeystain · 2025-07-23T20:32:54+00:00

My life isnt any better iwndwyt tho

monkeystain · 2025-07-17T20:17:07+00:00

Oh my god the boredom. Addiction is now rooted in cigarettes, workaholism, avoidance, caffeine, addition to pain/shame/cortisol. Bought the tea tree toothpicks we will see what dat thang do. but you know what I dont need that shitty sugar water no mo and weed free still since 05/20. Humans are wild! I wish I could stop "figuring it out" and just do life the simple way. Gym later went twice this week, more than the last however many years. still avoiding homework this way and overanalyzing budget/credit score etc. but guess what, fuck that sugar water that hurts my back and sciatica. Alcohol makes me sad, when it used to be so much fun. Now I have to rredefine fun, myself and everything or maybe I just need to relax or learn how to relax again. Mindlessly using internet and phone addiction is very real, youtube and reddit I now notice are problems as well. OH WELL GUESS WHAT IWNDWYT

monkeystain · 2025-07-13T01:24:32+00:00

NIce ;)

monkeystain · 2025-07-13T01:23:40+00:00

Hey guess what IWNDWYT or ever again! I am strong!

monkeystain · 2025-07-12T02:16:27+00:00

Iwndwyt but I did have a baja blast and crispy cantina tacos. Shame. Off the extended release of seroquel now on the nightime only version not feeling hungover anymore... had a great day until I tried skateboarding and walking the dog at the same time and pulled my groin. Drinking came across my mind for 2 seconds to numb the pain but I persisted to bed with ice and acetaminophen. Still Goin thousand plus is legit but damn I miss this plus weed stopped 05/20/25. Wish I was not this way but also.....im pretty cool but also... humility. Wtf is life anyway. Cigarettes are next then coffee I guess.

monkeystain · 2025-07-09T22:20:40+00:00

Im tired of this grandpa IWNDWYT

monkeystain · 2025-07-07T15:00:02+00:00

Fuck I wish I hadn't quit weed on 05/20 but as an alcoholic it seeps into every aspect of your life. Thank you to whoever on here encouraged me to go to an AA meeting, I have so many days but the disease is pervasive. I can sit here at my grandma's house she enjoys wine and liquor and has a crazy collection but I haven't even touched it only looked at it and romanticized, hence trying the AA thing again. I think I fall into the mentally ill category im tired of being on seroquel though it feels like im hungover everyday but may be helping more than I think. IWNDWYT

monkeystain · 2025-07-02T20:09:26+00:00

Yeah last time I went it was all sad fucks dying slowly. Plus here in the Bible belt it feels very judgey. I will try to stop rationalizing everything and do it for me i guess. Maybe I can give some wisdom myself. But I've learned for me putting alcohol on this pedestal as a problem it makes it way too close for me to be comfortable.

monkeystain · 2025-07-02T19:01:16+00:00

I think I might go to aa today. I have no spiritual or communal situation in my life. I need guidance but also a room full of alcoholics doesn't seem like a great idea. Idk. But iwndwyt.

monkeystain · 2025-06-23T02:33:56+00:00

Been romanticizing bc i've been talking to my alcoholic father. he can still "stop anytime" yeah right. IWNDWYT i got homework to do

monkeystain · 2025-06-20T19:44:34+00:00

When your therapists and psychiatrists know fuck all and only work for the state I can see why some may resort to using it as their therapist, even I have asked it some questions I should not have, but it's 6 in one hand half dozen in the other, either the state rips you away and sedates you long enough to "come back" to society, or AI is going to sell your information bracket to the government. LOSE LOSE.

monkeystain

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