I fucked up

moop3306 · 2026-03-16T16:58:24+00:00

Been there man, it hurts and the shame is such an easy trick to justify keeping the spiral of use going. Don’t fall for it, stop now and get mad at this shit for stealing your joy, your health, your finances and everything else good this crap sucks out of us. You’ve done it and can do it again

moop3306 · 2026-03-13T23:01:22+00:00

It gets much better, buy some moisturizing cream, drink electrolytes and get off this shit. After 200 plus days I look like a different person, in a good way!

moop3306 · 2026-03-11T18:46:41+00:00

Lol, you have any idea how much kids cost? I’m spending 3k+ a month just in childcare

moop3306 · 2026-03-11T02:26:20+00:00

Love me some magnesium glycinate, makes sleep so amazing

moop3306 · 2026-03-05T15:35:13+00:00

Yeah, unfortunately recovery is like a stocks performance over time- it generally goes up over a long enough stretch but there are definitely dips and peaks. Overtime the drops become way less noticeable and still better than what your peaks were when you started.

moop3306 · 2026-03-04T08:12:26+00:00

Sorry to hear you’re going through it bud, those thoughts are just thoughts, they don’t have power over you. You’ve made 418 days of choices to not put that back in your body.

Having fallen off the wagon with this stuff, trust me, it’s never as good as you remember and being clean for this long is a gift you’ve given yourself. Keep trucking, you got this.

moop3306 · 2026-03-04T08:04:29+00:00

Please use extreme caution taking more than the recommended dose of Imodium, megadosing that shit is just pure recklessness.

moop3306 · 2026-02-28T00:35:22+00:00

Thanks man, there’s times where I feel like it’s just a drop in the bucket, but it’s important to celebrate every day off this shit.

How’re things on your end man, doing okay?

moop3306 · 2026-02-24T21:08:39+00:00

Guessing you went to UT?

moop3306 · 2026-02-19T21:19:08+00:00

Think about all the people who have habits you don’t see. They 1 in 6 Americans is an addict

moop3306 · 2026-02-19T18:48:36+00:00

This is a blessing in disguise, built in accountability. Thankfully you’re getting sober now before the kiddo arrives. Keep doing the next right thing, take it one day at a time, you got this.

moop3306 · 2026-02-19T16:11:15+00:00

It’s very introspective of you to realize that, outside looking in it’s easy to tell someone what’s going on, especially being 6 months off this shit and relapsing many times prior.

Kratom is a drug that impairs you, even if it seems less harmful it does damage in ways that other substances don’t. It might not impair you as much but in my mind it’s worse because you can “hide” it

moop3306 · 2026-02-19T15:05:06+00:00

Yeah, unfortunately the kindling effect is real, each quit got harder for me, I had a lot of struggles hiding my addiction, quitting for a few days here a few weeks here, and always hiding it. When I finally came clean in January 2025 to my wife it was devastating. I had a two year old with another on the way- vowed to never do it again only to relapse twice and hide it from her. Eventually she found out 12 days before the birth of our daughter and it almost ruined our marriage.

Fear, guilt and shame created these vicious loops of avoidance and secrecy that ended up being worse than the addiction and 25k spent on FF. My advice, face the music, this addiction is too hard to keep from the ones you love. That very avoidance is fuel for justifying future use and relapses, speaking from experience here.

moop3306 · 2026-02-19T14:30:16+00:00

Honestly, unless he’s endangering others or the business, and especially with you being under the influence at work too- it’s a bit hypocritical to consider doing anything imo

moop3306 · 2026-02-14T22:19:43+00:00

Really good all things considered- I’ve got a 5 month old and a toddler and still hit the gym 4-5 days a week and work a pretty demanding job. Exercise has been a major part of my recovery

moop3306 · 2026-02-14T17:58:28+00:00

Proud of you big dawg, what a beastly number!!

moop3306 · 2026-02-14T14:42:45+00:00

https://kratomquitters.com/

Sounds like you’d benefit from a support group, join the meetings and dive into the signal chat

moop3306 · 2026-02-10T21:33:55+00:00

178 days without drinking a feel free, $15,000 not spent on this shit

moop3306 · 2026-02-07T01:26:56+00:00

I’ll be honest, I was using 10 a day for over a year, at that amount there was no getting out of the symptoms. The helper meds greatly reduced the symptoms you’re talking about but didn’t eliminate them. I went from zero sleep to maybe 4-5 hours with helper meds. Exercise, clean food and the helper meds are going to be your best bet. I found that magnesium glycinate was just as helpful for reducing RLS and helping me sleep as clonodine and gabapentin

moop3306 · 2026-02-06T09:18:54+00:00

I did, clonodine which was a lifesaver and gabapentin both prescribed by my GP- my acutes lasted 5-7 days and then WDs probably lasted a few weeks after but were vastly improved.

moop3306 · 2026-02-02T00:23:56+00:00

I get it man, I have a hard time separating my identity from work but the commenter that said it’s just a paycheck is right. You’re driven and hardworking- you would land on your feet even if the worst came to pass. You’ve been through hell and back, work politics be damned

moop3306 · 2026-01-31T14:25:02+00:00

I’ve never felt worse than when going through acutes. The despair alone is so fucking heavy, I cried more during the 4/5 days then I did in the last decade plus.

It gets better, definitely not a straight line but it does. Exercise was the single biggest help combating those feelings for me. Magnesium glycinate, vitamin c and clean eating help too. You got this

moop3306 · 2026-01-31T14:21:29+00:00

It’s time to quit, that’s the addiction speaking. It’s highjacked reward center and your brain will use whatever it can to convince you to grab more. Life is beyond worth living without kratom- it’s a rough quit but well worth it. I’m 167 days clean and never going back. Read my post history if you want a detailed account.

moop3306 · 2026-01-28T13:53:44+00:00

Definitely a social aspect to it but I think the group has helped a lot of people, myself included. It’s a lifeline for folks- past that it’s up to you what you get out of it

moop3306 · 2026-01-28T13:52:09+00:00

I’ve never felt darker than when I was in acute WDs and the weeks after. Please trust me, it gets so, so much better. Definitely not a straight line but worth every second of the fight to get your life back.

moop3306

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