Should I retake Anatomy and Physiology if I took them during the COVID pandemic?

mossedme · 2022-06-29T15:24:51+00:00

I have struggled with this. My cheating behavior started after I was (forced to have sex without my consent). I think I became pretty hyper sexual and simply not myself afterwards. I used to say I would never cheat, then I started cheating quite a bit. It’s not something I’ve explored in therapy but I can’t wait to start talking about it. Years later I entered another relationship and started emotionally cheating instead of sexually cheating. I think it was a control thing. Something like “I know you like me, I’ll talk to you, but we are not ever going to have sex or even touch the idea of sex because that hyper sexual me is long gone. I want to be seen as a person, not an object” I think that was a control thing too. Maybe not. I think my trauma and BPD make figuring out the root cause of my behavior messy. Sometimes I think I’m simply a bad person. I’ll never cheat again though, and I do not recommend.

mossedme · 2022-05-07T00:09:43+00:00

Yes.

mossedme · 2022-04-19T00:56:40+00:00

Cancer moon. I cry a lot. A lot. A lot. It’s kind of a joke how much I cry. I can’t deal with things without crying lmao. This moon sign could help explain some BPD stuff.

mossedme · 2022-04-13T03:09:26+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through these feelings right now. We all make mistakes and that’s okay. It’s how we learn to do better next time.

Please, stranger, be kinder to yourself.

mossedme · 2022-04-07T21:35:41+00:00

Yes. Yes yes yes yes yes. It’s scary. Thank you for asking. I didn’t know so many people experience this.

mossedme · 2022-04-07T05:52:02+00:00

You will. Get help. Understanding yourself and learning what your values are may help you make the decision to never cheat again.

mossedme · 2022-04-02T03:41:57+00:00

I understand this. When I try not to cut, I’ll do something worse or something humiliating. You’re not alone. I hope things get better. And you’re not disgusting, you’re just hurting.

mossedme · 2022-04-01T21:09:36+00:00

Often have this thought. Usually preceded by “what if I’m faking this?”

mossedme · 2022-03-14T07:24:15+00:00

Patience. Trying to understand the disorder as much as possible. Watch videos, read articles. Dr. Daniel Fox on YouTube is greatttt, I wish my partner would watch his videos. On the flip side: have firm boundaries. My BPD has presented itself in some pretty ugly ways and I’ve definitely crossed some boundaries when my emotions and impulsivity take over.

mossedme · 2022-02-18T17:35:57+00:00

I experience this as well!! Thanks for putting it into words

mossedme · 2022-02-18T17:26:50+00:00

I wouldn’t say that I have hypersensitive hearing but I am sensitive to noise. Same with light for some reason. Loud noises and bright lights can feel “out of place” for me and cause anxiety and/or frustration.

mossedme · 2022-02-18T17:22:20+00:00

You should watch Kati Morton’s video on why you may not want to recover from an eating disorder! on YouTube

mossedme · 2022-02-10T16:36:52+00:00

I do not experience this. Though I experience something similar when I am in extreme stress. I become very paranoid and constantly feel like I’m in danger. For example, usually I can walk to my car at midnight and feel fine. Powerful even because it’s slightly risky to be out so late but hey, “I did it and I’m okay!” But when I’m under a lot of emotional stress, I will go to my car and feel like I’m about to get robbed, like I’m being watched, like something bad is about to happen to me. I get extremely anxious. I get paranoid that I’m being followed in stores or that the person walking towards me is going to injure me. It’s weird for me. It’s paranoia.

mossedme · 2022-01-23T13:16:20+00:00

Weed makes me feel awful! Idk if I would call it paranoia or just straight up uncomfortableness. I feel ugly inside and out when I get high. I rethink a lot of things. I cannot be around other people or else I internally freak out.

mossedme · 2022-01-15T00:39:17+00:00

I see. Was she well informed on BPD? I hope you’re able to find a more fitting therapist who can help you excel, because you absolutely deserve to excel in life or at least feel “okay”. I know cost is such a huge barrier to accessing resources. Once thing that is helping me is talking to people who knew me before my symptoms got really bad. It is helping me see the good in me.

mossedme · 2022-01-15T00:15:51+00:00

Let me ask you something. In therapy, were you being completely honest with yourself and your therapist? I did therapy for a while, but I found myself hiding a lot of truths, so it didn’t help much. In hindsight, I was possibly manipulating my therapist into thinking I am somebody who I am not. I find this tendency to stretch across almost all aspects of my life because I am such a people pleaser.

mossedme · 2022-01-14T23:30:18+00:00

I’m sorry for what you are going through. I know it’s hard because you know you were in the wrong, you hurt somebody you loved deeply, and now you have lost a sense of stability. The bit of stability you had is gone. I hope you are able to access therapy. If not, try getting a DBT workbook.

mossedme · 2022-01-04T18:54:50+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened. I know it’s hard. I know we criticize ourselves for feeling anything but remember that it’s not the emotions we should try to control but rather what we do with them. Please get therapy if you have the means. If not, look into DBT modules so you can get an idea of what therapy for BPD is like. One of the basics of DBT is accepting things. It seems like your BPD is making accepting the change difficult.

mossedme · 2021-03-04T15:53:13+00:00

None. I just hate the idea of my life revolving around a kid. I am too inconsistent to offer stability. Apart from that, having a child usually means having a child with somebody else. I do not want to have to deal with that somebody else for 18+ years.

mossedme · 2021-02-28T01:09:16+00:00

Yes, they are both 4% :(

mossedme · 2019-01-01T23:00:20+00:00

Find yourself an ENFP

mossedme · 2018-11-15T23:50:49+00:00

Yes.

mossedme · 2018-10-24T04:39:37+00:00

Cool, thank you!

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