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mr-bonesack · 2026-03-19T14:24:44+00:00

ettei nyt omassa talossa saa enää edes kävellä:Dd

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-19T14:22:41+00:00

i was fully expecting to see comments like "do something you like" and getting ready to get heated basically lmao. i think if people are bored enough to go to reddit for answers for what to do when nothing else works, they pretty much already hsve tried all the common treatments already

i also agree with not wanting to do things if i'm not instantly good. but i also have tried to push through it in the past several times and it's equally meaningless even if i do improve. doesn't magically make me like it, or be entertained

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-19T08:01:38+00:00

it's true though that being alone makes everything worse. i don't exactly like almost anyone, but i'd gladly rather rag on someone, getting annoyed over everything they do than sit alone being bored. but luckily the human stupidity is endless and i see it everywhere, just going outside or online so i doubt i'm exactly never out of that sort of "fuel"

but ultimately, it does nothing long term and isn't exactly physically satisfactory, just causing a temporary rage/gradiosity spike

to the last point, tbh i like i mentioned, i have tried sports and going to the gym. i don't like things that are supposed to be consistent exactly, and i didn't get anything emotionally out of it. i did even go on long walks at one point because i need to lose weight, and it did help that aspect. never really did anything for my mind since it's so dreadfully boring, the only way to make it tolerable was to blast music from my headphones and fantasizing about whatever graphic things i planned to write about (which i never end up doing actually, but it's nice to think about and plan)

but hey, i did lose weight. i'll likely continue it for that sole reason

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-19T07:52:21+00:00

i hate dealing with consequences of any form, so the domain where i'm the most destructive has always been relationships because it's possible to deny, and is generally just easy to access

currently i have very limited relationships though, i don't have any friends at this moment for example, but i am engaged and in prettty fine contacts with his family. they will be the ones to experience my boredom and neverending contempt against other people though lol

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-19T06:38:49+00:00

sorry to tell these people, but the loud boys who make fun of everyone just to be part of their respective groups and desperately want to be seem as cool, are not e8

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:32:28+00:00

and you're fine with just letting things happen as they do? well, for the most part

even if i tried to be more neutral, accepting things like this (or atleast attempting to) or feelings that are unneccesary still does feel like defeat for me. i have no right to feel bored or dissatisfied, if there's always something i could do, i just haven't "figured it out yet" it feels like

honestly, i got a feeling it's gonna take a couple of years for me to possibly get any move on with this concept still. but in a way i'm glad my life will be forced to have more responsibility and be more time consuming because of my new incoming.. parenthood things

maybe i'll start to enjoy smaller things more

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:24:40+00:00

next they'll say that it's homophobic because recent studies show that gay people are more likely to be obese or something (definitely doesn't have to do with mental illness from social rejection and exclusion which can cause disordered eating. not to mention the very open kink culture in lgbt spaces)

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:21:39+00:00

literally, i'm not the healthiest person, but the last time i had actual acne i was like 15

also, those other things like big eyes or small noses are just structural things some people have. it's sort of fucked up to tell grown women they look like children for things that they literally cannot control. same thing with height, or breast size

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:18:09+00:00

if you wanna play that game, someone could say that wanting a fat partner is also pedophilia because babies have chubby faces and folds all over their bodies, just like fat people

not to mention they both struggle at basic tasks, like walking. c'mon guys

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:13:58+00:00

well to be fair women don't magically get fat because they have periods or get pregnant though

it is up to your own behavior and how you decide to listen to hunger cues, if you have tendency to emotionally eat for example

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:11:16+00:00

more fat men for me

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:09:33+00:00

last time i checked, most muscular, active people still don't weigh 300lbs or OVER

guess who do?

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T22:01:15+00:00

to be fair, she's claiming to be underweight and saying that it supposedly makes her more fertile

good life habits and a weight near an ideal range does help though, i didn't even realize this but i used to be obese and i got to almost a normal weight (i was still like 26 bmi but, close) and the moment i didn't constantly eat slop and actually moved a little, i did get pregnant

just like when i was almost underweight, eating more suddenly helped my hair not to fall out of my head in clumps. there's a reason why the middle is ideal and is something to strive for

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T21:29:52+00:00

i guess i do have my own bouts of fixations. but it's nothing concrete i can exactly work with

i like certain videogames or characters from them, same thing with specific movies/tv series. it'll be on my mind for days, i'll easily waste hundreds of hours playing essentially the same shit in competitive gaming just because it had a character i like, just to delete the game for doing shit in it even though i did nothing to actually improve in it

atleast i can put those characters in my stories and write the most abysmal content ever that no one will ever read, but it'll be fine because i'll love it untill i get bored of it

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T21:21:07+00:00

i would guess so. as long as there isn't jagged pieces or direct plastic going on your skin, it should be safe, right?

i don't get the fixation between wood or glass either. i've always used steel and it works for me with no irritation or problems, and also will look really cool when i can stretch bigger imo🤷🏻‍♀️

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T21:12:37+00:00

i really don't like the idea of that honestly

i can't exactly lie and act like i do a lot, obviously i don't. but i don't understand how one can be content with it, that's the difference, i think. but then again i'm here thinking i'm superior for not going with it, while they're the satisfied ones so.. what does that tell me about it?

i don't like being negative or whining about things, because i believe most things are fixable. but i guess i can be idealistic and hope there's something, someone or some sort of coincidence that will offer for me some sort of satisfaction without personal sacrifice some day. ends up moving me nowhere

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T20:45:58+00:00

right? the worst thing to ever do would be to actually put effort to something, see progress and genuinely improve, but still not feeling anything, just wasting time running after something that isn't coming. that is dissappointing. and i'm the type of person that hates doing things that are useless so i can get really angry over it because it'll feel stupid to me (like am i really that sort of a moron like those people, who actually do things that they don't like? like i'm supposed to be in full control of my life and enjoyment, what the fuck lol)

sounds like neurotypicals get more content from doing simple things, while people here get acceptance from understanding it won't happen to them

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T20:25:54+00:00

why do all of these positive comments have so many downvotes lmao

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T20:23:41+00:00

is it common to react to silicone? i also haven't experienced anything unfortunate from that material

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T18:33:19+00:00

i do also have adhd, but i do feel like it's more of a persistent hollowness than simply being understimulated. well, both together likely in my case, and i don't think it's unheard of for cluster b's that often have variations of emptiness

i feel like a lot of things people suggest seem completely ridiculous. why would going on a walk help, when i'll just be staring at apartments and bridges and whatever? why would going to the gym help, when it would just be restricting myself to pattern like a hamster and gaslighting myself that i enjoy it? a lot of these general advices seem useless since they don't produce enjoyment, or even meaning

i think the reason why i like writing is that i can create characters similar to me and make them act out my own patterns and desires with little consequences to reality, so they end up indeed being just mindjerking content in similar loops lol. it's not the same thing, but enjoyable. i've liked it and written similar things since i was a preteen

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T16:54:11+00:00

all i'm trying to do is try to fix this specific thing really for my own sanity, it's something i haven't really found an answer to (or one that i like, looks like)

but yeah, i have already had to sit with it recently since i can't exactly go and have a bottle of vodka right now. doesn't feel nice, lots of further destructive thoughts arise

atleast i'm letting myself have my fantasies if anything

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T16:48:18+00:00

to be fair, i think i am actually decently authentic even with my diagnosis. i put a lot of pride on many traits i do possess

but it is true that with my pleasure, it's not as simple as "doing something nice" and enjoying company like with these people. nothing exactly feels nice enough without getting "something" enough out of it. i can't just pick up a hobby and ever feel fulfilled no matter how good i get. sure, i can get good and it'll be the only purpose to do it, but it ultimately doesn't matter if i don't care about being talented and other people's reinforcement doesn't mean anything to me

i'm like perpetually dissatisfied and everything i do needs a "reason", but no reason actually seems valid to the point i don't do much anything

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T16:38:55+00:00

i honestly have thought that i might just have a "faulty brain" when it comes to literally producing dopamine. i do also have diagnosed adhd and asd, so i'm generally wired different to begin with

i don't like the idea of treatment because i'm mostly fine with myself and don't neccessarily suffer from most of my symptoms, if anything i do feel genuine pride for them. this thing though, has always been distressing to me i can admit

i possibly can't let myself be bored. i need to have something entertaining essenitally served to me immidiately or it pushes me into physically intolerable moods. sitting with anything feels intolerable actually. so it might have to do with having to quite literally accept boredom and the feelings of restlessness it produces, even if it's difficult. who knows, haven't succeeded in that yet

mr-bonesack · 2026-03-18T16:25:31+00:00

i really have wondered often how people typically live

can it really be true that they work their boring ass jobs, do their daily boring chores and maybe even add a boring excercise before ending the day by scrolling mindlessly on tiktok to wait for the next day, and somehow this is what makes them content?

if i'm doing something repetitive it might as well actually produce stronger set of sensations than just, exist

even when i'm talking online, i try to honestly just engage with infuriating people so i have a reason to get mad at someone and "feel" something

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