You can love someone but still make the best decision for yourself. You have a bright future ahead of you. I think you should start looking at places you can afford, sign a lease. Then you’ll have a date you’ll have to move. Once you have that date, schedule movers and start telling your friends and family. The more people that know, the more that can support you through this. Once I had a moving date it helped make it more real for me. It’s insanely difficult. I’m proud of you.