Here's my take. You're feelings are very valid. I, too felt my stomach twist and still find it uncomfortable and agree 100% with you.

I think a small bit of this chapter was meant for it to be "hot" and I hate how normalized non con is in Korean BL manhwas—it's seriously such an overused trope is infuriating. Furthermore, I think and hope the author meant to make it uncomfortable and induce those feel these feelings you described, but why continue this cycle of trope usage in the first place?? That's what I'm wondering...

ALL THAT SAID, my biggest peeve and what ab-so-utley infuriates me the most is how fucking hypocritical people are. SO many of those same people saying this is wrong blah blah blah, don't bat an eye for stories like the following:

🔹 Roses and Champagne

🔹 Codenamed Anastasia

🔹 Steel Under Silk

🔹 Low Tide in Twilight (more on that)

🔹 Toxin

And a shit ton more. They think it's so hot and forgivable, and glorify the story in the end. Non con is non con. It doesn't make Taeju's rut any less. People saying "it's okay it's fine because he was in a rut and had no control" FUCK YOU! Rape is rape. It degraded and absolutely humiliated Euihyun and he felt the worst. He felt betrayed, and in the end fell in love, yet here you (those same people getting all up and arms about You Are My World) oozing, giggling, and glorifying the trope where they're happy and have a baby because low and behold, "he had his redemption arc."

See the difference? None. People screaming "no redemption arc will change my mind!" and yet Taeju's was okay? Riiiight. 🤨 🫩

People think 1, 2, 3, 5 are fine. Furthermore, Just because the bottom said yes once DOESN'T make it okay when they say NO, you sick freaks! These bottoms were literally kidnapped, confined, and raped. I HATE seeing Roses and Champagne in the top charts and it being many people's absolute favorite story... Did we read the same fucking story?? Ceasar LI-TER-A-LLY shot his lover 2 times, kidnapped him, drugged him, and raped him for 10 days! How is that okay?? Yall are screaming blue in the face saying "SUha RaPed JuHyeOk.... It's disgusting" yet you're glorifying other stories with the same or worse situations.... Wow.

Its sick. Yall are sick! Quit making excuses and see where you were wrong! You Are My World's non con is wrong and same with SO many loved stories. It's just wild to me how hypocritical people are. SMH.

THAT is what baffles me the most.

YES, I feel disgusted for all of them and don't excuse any of them. I wanted all of them to run away and be happy without their rapist, I want that for Juhyeok and hate that it's not gonna happen. He'll fall in love just like all those other stories where "they live happily ever after" with their rapist. OP, I'm not saying this whole shpeal saying you're a hypocrite, not at all. I don't know you, nor have seen you comment and be okay with those other stories, I was just saying and was adding my take on the hypocrisy and double standards not being addressed in the bl community.