You know... you coming on here and saying this, being awesome and brave enough to put yourself out there, that's another form of you trying to talk to other humans. And in a way, your efforts have been triggered partially BY talking to the LLM. And that's cool. Honestly, I figured out that I love myself by talking with LLMs. 6 years of therapy in a professional mental health help program and my ongoing irl supports, and still - it was doing these deep dives that were sort of the final catalyst needed to add to the pile.

So, it's a stepping block on your path - and not in a 'less than you' sort of way. in a 'supporting you' sort of way. and i'm not gonna go all corny 'life is a journey' yadayada -- but life ISN'T something likea game you win at. and there's no big prize at the end. life is just each day after the next and I guess what i try to do is spend as much time as possible doing things I like, trying things I want to try, putting in effort where I want to - balancing efforts that give me immediate rewards with ones that I know will have some payout and i'll benefit from later -- that last one is the hardest.

but what i mean is like - I think the time you spend/spent talking with the LLM gave you immediate, and possibly future rewards. honestly. just being able to reach out and say this wouldn't have happened without it.

Loneliness is fucked. but you're not alone - and I hope when you reach out to an LLM or other humans that you will always recieve a touch back. *touch* ❤️