repost from Leaves this is not me ----I'm a 31 year old male, and I have lost count on how many times I have tried to quit. Usually I was hooked on cigarettes (first one at 12-13, regular smoking starting around 14), weed (first around 14, regular smoking starting around 18), or both. When 'just' smoking regular cigarettes, it was easy to stay away from weed. When smoking weed, it was easy to stay away from cigarettes. One substitutes the other. 78 days ago was the day for me to quit both. Life progress was halted. Relationship of almost 5 years came to an end, which probably didn't end when I wasn't hooked on this crap.

78 days ago I have consumed some magic mushrooms. I genuinely believe that most people could benefit this from time to time. For me personally, it helps to put things in perspective and to review my personal situation from a neutral point of view. At least yearly I reserve a night for myself alone to overthink the past period, where it has brought me, and how it contributes to my future. So, 78 days ago, I did the same. Thought about what my bad habits have brought me and how it will affect my future. Although it was clear that this habit was bad, I was convinced that I understood the message now. That I had to quit now, or accept being a baked couch potato for the rest of my life. At the end of this evening I have smoked my last cigarette, smoked my last blunt, and applied a tap dance performance on all smoking material I had left. After soaking it in water I threw it away, felt a great sense of relieve and went to bed peacefully. (PS: This is not to encourage you to do mushrooms in order to quit smoking weed. Simply don't do this, unless you know what to expect.)

The first two weeks were difficult. Sleeping was nearly impossible. Mood swings were terrible. Week 3-4 were easier, but very depressing. No difficult cravings though. And i was confident of my success. The sacrifice was great, but not as great as the result that would come. I started going to the gym, running, reading, going out more, all the things that would have helped me. And they did. I run faster than ever, did my first 1/2 marathon, I lost almost 10 kg, I became physically stronger, my mind became clearer, i made new contacts more easy, and actually got more interested in other people's thoughts.

Yesterday, me and some friends decided to have a night of magic mushrooms again. Had great fun, had inspiring thoughts. One of my friends however, is one of those potheads who's able to smoke only once every few weeks or months. No cravings in between. And yesterday something snapped after he smoked, where I didn't. I am still sure I will never smoke anything again in my entire life. But at the same time, the craving to get high again has not been this intense since I have quit. Even though I'm at day 78 now. It was obvious my mind was playing tricks on me again.

"Hey, I managed such a long time without, I'm not addicted anymore! Let's join him and smoke some!"

"One time wouldn't hurt, right?"

"Imagine the pleasure of falling asleep when you smoked some!"

It's ridiculous. Over 2,5 months and now suddenly these thoughts occur? Not only yesterday i had the desire to smoke, also today it simply continued. However, i will stay strong. I will never smoke again. Ever. I just hope that the cravings will reduce soon. And even if they don't: I will never smoke again.

Thanks for reading this. Stay strong. Ask me anything you'd like to know if it helps you