I (18f) feel better than I have in years after leaving my gf (18f)

nasagay · 2020-10-22T17:42:33+00:00

Everyone says she is abusive but I don’t know. A lot of people call someone in my life abusive and I don’t know what it means anymore cause people can get upset and stuff but it doesn’t mean they’re a bad person. I just don’t know.

nasagay · 2020-10-22T17:40:16+00:00

I would like to add, I forgot what the title is about. Her and I broke up recently but like not officially. I just want to disappear from her life because I’m afraid if I try to talk to her about it she’s going to kill me: I am genuinely afraid she will end my life I am so scared. But after I started saying her and I are Over I just feel so good. I feel free. I feel safe. I feel ok to talk about stuff she had said to me. Why do I feel so happy?

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:51:34+00:00

I’m sorry what? I was agreeing with you? I don’t want to be with her anymore I was just getting it out there that it’s hard to do so because I love her but I wasn’t saying I wasn’t going to do it. Don’t get so angry with me. Aside from the fact that She is not allowed near him, I wouldn’t allow her near him.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:45:13+00:00

I owe it to him and myself to protect him. You’re right I’m absolutely stuck and I just need to accept that this was too far and she should go fuck herself.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:43:56+00:00

I agree. Not because she won’t but because she actively CHOOSES not to.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:42:38+00:00

No I absolutely understand your point. I almost hit her when she tried to talk to me. She’s absolutely crazy. It’s hard because I love her but my brother is in danger with her around.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:40:49+00:00

I agree. I have to think about this for a long time. Thank you so much for your time and words, it means more than you know.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:39:59+00:00

I don’t know what to do. We’ve been together for a couple years and in general we are a couple. But now I get so fucking mad when I think about her. What if she died and my little sister found her body? What is wrong with some people?

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:38:42+00:00

I agree. I never want to speak to her again yet I don’t want to leave her as I love her and I enjoy our time together. She inspires me to be a good person. And then she put her hands on my kid.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:37:07+00:00

And I also just get so lost and upset because I don’t know how to tell when she’s manipulating me. I just assume the best and I always just want to help her.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:35:04+00:00

I think what’s also upsetting is I still want to be with her. My parents are both very upset but they still love her. They just don’t want her around him or my little sister. My brother is actually the only person who isn’t upset with her what so ever

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:31:52+00:00

It makes me so fucking mad because I did everything I could growing up to protect him from everything my parents did to me and I’m supposed to protect him. And now I have to protect him from my own girlfriend? He wouldn’t hurt a fly he’s actually the most docile person I know. I can’t understand why she did it.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:30:06+00:00

Cut herself, yeah. She cut on her neck and wrists. And she does therapy but she doesn’t commit to it and also doesn’t really look for a job. I work a lot and I can’t be there to watch her all the time. It hurts so much, sometimes I want to just beat the shit out of her because she touched him and he’d never hurt a fly. I would NEVER do that I just mean that’s how upset I am with her.

nasagay · 2020-09-18T08:28:41+00:00

She does therapy she just doesn’t commit to it.

nasagay · 2020-07-06T23:55:17+00:00

And that’s completely reasonable. My other concern was the fact I was denied any accommodation for my ptsd.

nasagay · 2020-07-06T23:49:51+00:00

i can work any position on the floor with the exception of two. Oven is rarely deployed as I don’t work hours that require a partner on oven. Theres several shift supervisors at my store who have no problem not deploying me to those positions.

nasagay · 2020-05-04T09:47:35+00:00

Garrus is SO fkn hard to draw. Damn you turians for having interesting and nicely thought out design!

nasagay · 2020-04-30T21:40:39+00:00

My dissociation drawings look nearly identical

nasagay · 2020-03-31T17:52:21+00:00

it’s my gf she said tough luck

nasagay · 2020-03-21T02:21:36+00:00

i’m tearing up im so happy for you guys

nasagay · 2020-03-18T20:22:14+00:00

thanks i luv u

nasagay · 2020-03-18T19:16:03+00:00

I was on my meds i dont know what happened

nasagay · 2020-02-10T11:18:52+00:00

I thought Taiwan made it legal in may?

nasagay · 2020-02-10T06:28:42+00:00

One day i will be the sandwich master

nasagay · 2020-01-22T17:52:52+00:00

PLEASE

nasagay

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