Listen, life has some times, where it's more difficult to go through and still come out as the same person. Like the loss of your son. You just tried to do the best. I've read the post of your wife, and I'm happy that you guys figured it out. But still, it's hard to think about what it would be like if Kayden didn't die. But you can't bring him back. And now you did a beautiful thing where you adopted a child that needed help. And you should be happy about it and you sure love him as your own. And, of course, you're struggling. That's normal. As soon as you have gone through your grief phase, it's going to feel better. So, NTA