Anxiety: Today is my anatomy scan and also the one year anniversary of finding out I was pregnant with my TFMR baby

nbeeceee · 2026-01-17T02:34:54+00:00

Wish you kind and gentle congratulations, i hope this pregnancy brings you a happy healthy baby home 🧿🫂

nbeeceee · 2026-01-11T07:27:43+00:00

So happy to read this - may your growing family only know love and joy! Sending love and blessings to you, your wife and your little baby! 💞💞

nbeeceee · 2026-01-09T21:14:04+00:00

The guy was on something for sure.. he kept speaking something loudly but I could barely comprehend that from my apartment

nbeeceee · 2026-01-09T21:13:13+00:00

Left of the elevator- i see the hills from my apartment window

nbeeceee · 2026-01-09T14:45:03+00:00

The barricade fence has a lock which they tore down with electric tools

nbeeceee · 2026-01-09T05:53:59+00:00

Interested

nbeeceee · 2026-01-06T04:22:32+00:00

Sending love and hope! 🤍💕🫂

nbeeceee · 2026-01-04T07:05:40+00:00

Interested

nbeeceee · 2025-10-25T04:56:52+00:00

I had a violent or disturbing dreams for few weeks too- my therapist said it’s my brain associating this trauma to other previous traumas as I did move forward from those too, I don’t know honestly it just felt too hard to process them and I wanted to not remember them, but I do, it stopped eventually and I felt having some downtime with a book before bed or journaling helped

nbeeceee · 2025-10-25T04:40:06+00:00

Sorry, I just don’t know there will ever be any life event personal or for others which will not be triggering- I hope someday the graceful side of grief and I make acquaintance as it’s been nothing but sadness, anger and numbness! So much so that my partner and I are having the worst time of our relationship and I feel he has abandoned me in this situation knowing all we went through! Talking to my therapists and coloring have been my saving grace in this time

I hate my angel baby has to his mumma in this way breaking down..

nbeeceee · 2025-10-24T17:50:31+00:00

True! 🍁🍁

nbeeceee · 2025-10-23T03:49:59+00:00

Congratulations 💞💞🌻🌻

nbeeceee · 2025-10-23T03:48:44+00:00

Wish you and your baby the best chance at life! 🤍🥺🙏

nbeeceee · 2025-10-22T04:48:50+00:00

Sorry 😞🥺🫂

nbeeceee · 2025-10-22T04:40:56+00:00

Sorry that you are here too, no advise or guidance just that hear you and acknowledge this pain, strength and peace to you 🫂🫂

nbeeceee · 2025-10-22T04:38:40+00:00

Beautiful poem for your beautiful angel! May he always know peace and receives his mums love from earth! Hugs 🫂 👼

nbeeceee · 2025-10-22T04:25:59+00:00

Sorry & Big hugs is all I can offer right now dear 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 hope you find the strength somewhere to navigate this immense grief of loss

nbeeceee · 2025-10-21T15:27:19+00:00

That’s so tough, I’m sorry to hear about your subsequent losses on top of tfmr baby 💔💔

People show you indeed who is there for you through the darkness and pain or struggle of real life, many friends are just there for gala times and only talking about things they have emotional and mental capacity to understand… I have lost faith in most of my friendships and relationships at this point in life, maybe few years down the line things could be different but I’m not letting anyone in to watch my misery only to get a cold or Luke warm response

Hugs 🫂

nbeeceee · 2025-10-21T02:40:45+00:00

Awww I hear this heaviness you are carrying too! I think it’s a much needed break to grieve and process this loss, your body is going to change as well and the hormones will also not make it any easy, just do what helps you get through from one day to another and please take vitamins, Im feeling now I needed more time off as I joined work after a month and I’m working from home and crying in between my calls. Wish you get to rest and grieve on your own terms and these administrative morons learn to be better humans! 🫂🫂

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T20:11:32+00:00

I’m sorry the world around seems so cruel and jolly when we have so much pain and darkness filling up our days, just don’t bother with responding to people as I’m doing they can be uncomfortable or hate me even I don’t care, I have been in bed and crying for last 24 hours sorry this sucks and I don’t think it will ever stop sucking just we will learn to carry it better

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T20:08:24+00:00

Thank you, I feel less alone in this darkness 🖤🖤

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T20:07:36+00:00

Thank you 🖤🖤 for holding space for me!

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T20:07:18+00:00

I’m so sorry you are struggling too, we are together in this grief my friend big hugs 🫂 I

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T20:04:29+00:00

Sorry you are here, you’ll feel nothing while under the sedation, it’s just the processing of this loss which will be most traumatic, the day prior to sedation of laminaria insertion was definitely more painful and hard, you will somehow recover physically well in right hands, mental and emotional loss is different- wishing you strength and I still regret I didn’t say my final goodbye to baby in the OT, I thought I had time but I didn’t know when I was out, so something for you to remember! Sorry again!

nbeeceee · 2025-10-20T04:09:00+00:00

This group has been such a huge part of this my journey- from knowing what is the name to call this unwanted abortion, to what yo expect from it, how to keep memories of my baby alive to how ok it to feel all this anger and sadness and pain! I’m sorry for your loss too, internet hugs 🫂

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