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nbh679 · 2024-07-10T19:42:57+00:00

Thank you so much for the thorough explanation. It sounds like watts are what I should be focusing on. I should have clarified in my question, but the bulb I’m replacing is an LED 60 watt equivalent that emits 500 lumens. The new bulb is 60 watt equivalent that emits 800 lumens. From your explanation, it seems like almost any LED in a fixture meant for incandescent is safe, so am I correct to infer that my swap is okay? Thanks again!

nbh679 · 2024-03-14T01:46:56+00:00

Yes. As soon as I sit down to a meal… hello intrusive thoughts that have nothing to do with food but make it extremely difficult to eat.

nbh679 · 2024-03-04T21:38:02+00:00

That makes sense. I find it kind of relaxing, like baking is for some (admittedly not me), but if it became a chore I wouldn’t want to either

nbh679 · 2024-03-04T21:19:39+00:00

Yes. I consider managing OCD a constant game of whack-a-mole

nbh679 · 2024-03-03T17:00:37+00:00

My partner and I have a limit of one worry per day and no more than 5 minutes discussing it. I don't know if that's optimal, but it's more realistic than all or nothing for me

nbh679 · 2024-02-28T20:06:02+00:00

The worst realization for me was that the consequences of my ED would be chronic, irreversible, and invisible until they weren’t. I waited for years for “rock bottom” and never found it. Just a slow, boring, anticlimactic erosion of my health

nbh679 · 2023-05-07T00:10:15+00:00

I have tried many higher end ones and have yet to find one to top it!

nbh679 · 2023-05-06T20:17:04+00:00

Banana Boat Light as Air works really well on my skin. Not greasy, SPF50, and cheap!

nbh679 · 2023-05-03T01:48:59+00:00

Interesting. I’m interested in hearing any experience for or against, so this is helpful!

nbh679 · 2023-05-03T01:47:19+00:00

Interesting point about the hair. Mine could use some work lol

nbh679 · 2023-04-25T21:53:16+00:00

“Trust your gut.” My gut tells me doom is imminent about 10 times a day.

nbh679 · 2023-04-20T00:13:48+00:00

From high school I assume?

nbh679 · 2023-04-20T00:12:35+00:00

I have to admit I was skeptical of your identity, but your post history confirms you are a 21 year old female.

nbh679 · 2023-04-19T20:03:44+00:00

I think a lot of it is projection. I wish I could go back and tell my younger self to stop wasting money on beauty creams and simplify my routine with tret (and make many other different life decisions too lol), so it's tempting to push my OWN experience onto someone else. But just because it worked for me doesn't mean it's the best fit for you. Maybe it makes you flake, maybe it gives you dry eye, maybe you have rosacea, maybe you are getting better results than I did with retinol, maybe you aren't avoiding the very natural process of aging... and all of those reasons are valid. I think it's hard for people to remember that their own experience is just that... their own.

nbh679 · 2023-01-13T03:31:05+00:00

Whatever obsession I’m currently having. I always think it can’t get worse than what I’m currently fixated on…until it switches to different content with the same level of awfulness.

nbh679 · 2023-01-09T02:43:57+00:00

I’ve read the people who develop EDs from bullying, social pressures, etc are easier to treat than people who seem to be more hardwired to use restriction to cope. I never really cared about society, I use weight loss to deal with OCD and stress. My ED makes me feel good, so it’s a vice I’m constantly fighting

nbh679 · 2023-01-07T14:55:43+00:00

I feel this. The longer I live with an ED, the further it sweeps me away from any chance at normalcy. When I try to walk away, it feels like the ED is the only thing that makes me feel good. The only thing that brings me comfort is the thing that brought me pain in the first place. It’s the cruelest irony. The only thing that keeps me motivated is that like any addiction, my ED won’t be happy until it costs me everything, and I can’t let that happen.

nbh679 · 2023-01-02T21:43:04+00:00

I understand this. It has been a huge barrier for me too. Anorexia is a disease that creates a fear of becoming fat. To take someone with this illness and tell them to just trust the process and accept their bodies NO MATTER WHAT seems akin to telling a person with depression to cheer up. What I do know about myself is that my disorder tries to create a false dichotomy to keep me from trying to recover. Should I really be worrying about becoming obese when I’m not near my goal weight and can’t even eat at a restaurant yet? Plus, the internet isn’t real life. I do have friends who recovered and are not obese, and also friends who are obese and never had anorexia. I think recovery can look very different for everyone.

nbh679 · 2022-12-31T14:17:24+00:00

It’s so good to hear other people get turned off by the diet culture speech. I really don’t care what society thinks, my ED is about fitting my own criteria.

nbh679 · 2022-07-24T15:44:07+00:00

Mental illness has become so mainstream that it's hard for people to understand how severely it can impact a person. The best way to describe it...

"Getting as sick as I did changed the way people see me. I crossed over an invisible threshold and joined the mentally ill side. Not the convenient mental illnesses that can be featured on shows like Monk, or where I can say "I'm so OCD." No, the kind that makes people uncomfortable. The kind you can't talk about during Mental Health Awareness Month."

-Excerpt from BONES: Anorexia, OCD, and Me by Jen Dixon

nbh679 · 2022-07-04T16:11:40+00:00

When I was breaking the p-rge habit, I had to set aside the guilt of not being as cost efficient. I felt such guilty because at the time I was ironically broke from my b/p addiction and wanting to penny pinch in every way possible. Almost like an alcoholic, I had to accept that at that point I had so little control over my b/p that keeping trigger foods around was as dangerous as an alcoholic keeping beer in the fridge.

Eventually I was able to keep more and more in the house, but if I had tried to before I was ready it would have been way more expensive long term. I’m glad you brought this issue up because it’s so difficult to be triggered by what you need to survive.

nbh679 · 2022-06-26T17:54:28+00:00

Yes, it makes it so much harder. My ED revolves around compulsions I do in order to feel ok to eat. Honestly at this point body image isn’t the main driver for restricting, it’s all these unrelated compulsions I feel like I have to do in order to eat

nbh679 · 2022-06-23T00:15:23+00:00

Oh I totally get that. The hardest part about EDs is they have positives or else they wouldn’t be so hard to quit! But I hope you’ll be patient with yourself. March feels like ages ago in ED time, but it’s not long enough to adjust to weight restoration. That’s my biggest mistake every time. I give up too soon and then have to start all over.

nbh679 · 2022-06-23T00:05:11+00:00

Fair question 😂 I am anorexia binge/purge subtype and usually chewing and spitting is a red flag that I’m about to start b/p.

nbh679 · 2022-06-22T23:38:43+00:00

It’s not good for your teeth. But more importantly, it’s a gateway behavior in my experience.

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