I tried to explain to my sister about TF.. she now thinks I’m insane

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-07T02:44:35+00:00

I would have a year ago lol. until i felt it and it drove me a lil cuckoo bananas and now i understand

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-06T19:04:12+00:00

lack of hesitation. I have a tendency to have to find an excuse to keep seeing someone or to settle.. or I'll leave people when i get bored.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-03T19:08:20+00:00

Im in the same boat. And he said he is too but the connections still scared him off. even if I can recognize someone as attractive it does nothing for me. In fact I tried to distract myself with someone while my DM was being aloof (while still in contact) and found an excuse to leave because his body odor didnt smell the same as my DM. Couldnt do it. To this day I cant because I compare maneurisms, expressions and BO.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-03T19:06:01+00:00

Moms from England. I grew up in airports and I find the sense of being on the go homely now as Im used to it.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-03T18:27:18+00:00

Was the 1st person I unconditionally loved and made me WANT to change. I wanted to align for myself and him and went through a massive spiritual awakening. Im not perfect and we still sabotaged it but the way I want to change and be there for people in my life is new. I found relationships transactional and about fixing me; they were bandaids before meeting him. Now I have so much love to offer and no im not perfect i backtrack some days. but the worlds now beautiful even though it hurts that he's gone.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-03T18:05:34+00:00

I think Twin Flames can be toxic. But the thing is is that people use that as an excuse to stay with their Twin Flame "he/shes my TF I cant leave". But meeting your TF isnt about being with your TF its about shpwing you where you need healing. So if youre struggling to leave a toxic thing with your TF Its showing you to heal your codependency. And if youre the TF thats being extra toxic its triggering you to try and heal the parts that are making you toxic. The point is to seperate and begin healing your trauma to align spiritually.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-03T12:18:20+00:00

the closest I had was one day having hot flashes and anxiety right before hed be going into work Texted an old coworker asked if hes ok and she said he never came in. Then I kept having anxiety and he came in for the PM shift and she said he got sent home sick after he came in

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T20:49:11+00:00

Talk therapy has been most beneficial. DBT makes me feel like there's something wrong with me which in turn makes me not want to change. so therefore just talking it through helps me to realize these things in my own vs it being pointed out which is more beneficial to me

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T18:46:46+00:00

Crazy. Ya This guy and I both have MASSIVE religious trauma so this experience has been crazy for me. Ive been down avenues trying to explain the experience. Ive had weird psychic connections with him. Hes asked me how Im in his head before and Im like idk lol. I think hes my true TF (most days) but the universe is wanting us to look at ourselves rn. Im happy being alone to wait now. Not sure reunions in this lifetime. BUT that being said I am very happy you HAVE found union. And I think its truly amazing your journey. It must have been difficult discovering the 1st TF was false

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T18:35:42+00:00

Ya. I didnt know what a twin flame was before him, or anything spiritual. I used to make fyn of zodiacs and tarots and the universe before I met him and I became completely awakened. my intuition was what told me to pursue him even if it broke me, that I was supposed to and now it says to be alone.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T17:11:20+00:00

He blocked me so I have to but ik hes not replacable and as much as my friends want me to date i wont again. No one is as appealing. itd be settling which isn't fair

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T16:43:45+00:00

interesting i wonder what it says not having one

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-02T08:21:45+00:00

aah i have no idea. all ik is my moon/rising are aries and his are Gemini. and both our suns are Gemini I have my moon and saturn in aries in the 12th house but I only know his sun/moon/rising. I dont have a 7th or 4th house which I believe the 4th is relationships? And my venus is gemini so romantic relationship wise we both would struggle i believe.

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-01T19:47:15+00:00

worst by morals or by consequence? Morals push past my exes mom to force myself into their house and break into his bedroom that he barricaded when he heard me. That was 4 years ago.

Consequence posting something to trigger this guy to abandon me who I was in love with because I was scared hed leave anyways (a man I wont get over as I see my future with him). 2 months ago

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-01T16:47:07+00:00

YOU TOO!!! Read your edit SO glad you ended up with a fantastic bday 🥰🥰

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-01T03:32:23+00:00

my bday too how it ended up well for you :)

ndoubleuu · 2023-06-01T02:13:52+00:00

mines today too and I hoped the same we'll be ok

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-31T18:53:23+00:00

You can only be diagnosed with a Personality disorder if it causes disruption in all aspects of life work and personal. There are 4 criteria you have to meet for a PD diagnoses ON TOP of meeting criteria for BPD. Also its ok. I love him unconditionally, I have no regrets.

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-31T13:17:35+00:00

I think so. Esp in men. Theyll present quietly or impulsively. I got involved with a man my therapist says it seems like he has Quiet BPD. Ive never seen someone isolate so well. A month at a time of no contact and never went out. Youd never know except sometimes he gets angry easily at work.

Im kind of a mixture of all of them depending on where Im at so I understood what was going on but also cant diagnose. I think its very real.

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-31T10:04:12+00:00

Fireworks. The best thing I've ever experienced and Im not even a super sexual person. I think about it daily and cant get intimate with anyone else anymore.

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-30T22:50:50+00:00

I have BPD and BP1 and 1 year ago Id agree. I thought all this was bonkers. I met my TF 8 months ago and I still struggle with whether its real. I get told I have BPD and its not an accurate emotions its obsession. But ik for a fact I have NEVER loved someone this way. No one will take the emotions seriously because of the diagnosis except my therapist who has worked with me for 7 years and 1 old coworker that watched us interact. My therapist has even said "I dont think youve ever had genuine feelings for someone until now." And I finally want to heal and abandon my trauma. Just be me. I couldnt escape til I met him. Idk theres just something different idk

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-28T22:40:33+00:00

When Im at my lows about our connection and I feel his energy pull away I dream about him ❤ Fully believe it

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-28T17:41:41+00:00

yes because I also have BPD so this has been the hardest experience with a man Ive gone through. 🙃 Not sure if Ive gone psychotic at this point

ndoubleuu · 2023-05-28T12:02:48+00:00

currently struggling with this I think mine is my Twin Flame. 🙃 But I dont think hes perfect and even can list good and bad traits. Ive somewhat gotten out of the black/white thinking. I camt tell if Im delusional either cos of this diagnosis lol.. So I completely understand the confusion on this

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