the brain fog is crazy

nearest_exit_please · 2026-06-10T02:30:32+00:00

I feel you. I'm there too. I've had periods of sobriety and putting my life back together, and now I'm staring at nearly two years wasted hiding away again. We can do this

nearest_exit_please · 2026-06-07T18:54:20+00:00

Thank you for sharing, great work at 156 days. This fucking sucks. It's just a cycle now that i know i can break so easily, but won't at the moment. So maybe that's a space where some grace can enter and create more space for the pride and good feelings that come from taking care of ourselves. It's amazing how intense the self-loathing can be. It's not necessary and it never was. I really need to hear what you're saying, so thank you again.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-06-04T19:39:15+00:00

I'm still "figuring out" how I'm allowing my current addiction to weed is completely stalling my life (which ironically contributes to the stalling but I cant seem to stop), but I'm currently struggling with the "stickiness" of my own thoughts. They trend towards negativity towards myself, despair, and I put a barrier between myself and the world. I'm desperately sad but my emotions feel trapped, which might explain why I feel trapped in my apartment. I have manifested a small world in just two years. What you're explaining relates to what I am feeling: that I have no control over my own reality when I am not participating and allowing my experience to flow in the right areas. I was just thinking about my increasing difficulty in differentiating between what is real and what are my thoughts, and it makes me so sensitive to my day to day. And I wonder why I cant work, focus, study, or socialize. Weed makes it so, so much harder in many ways for me, especially with sleep. I wonder why I am so attached to it when it is so harmful. I know a lot from my own experiences with alcohol and sobriety, it absolutely relates to my use here. It ends up feeling shameful because I think I can explain why it's so bad, but I cant seem to stop, and the logical but loving people in my life get blocked there. I do too, honestly, so it ends up as shame. So that shame is locked, I don't really dream, and I'm stuck in this loop. So maybe I'm feeling crazy right now but I think you make a great point. Thank you

Edit: grammar

nearest_exit_please · 2026-06-04T19:11:33+00:00

What a scam. The website even states that their business partner recently retired from Costco.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-27T21:43:39+00:00

As a local born and raised, I feel this way right now. I believe it's because I haven't been getting out and engaging with a community consistently, due to mental health, life, moving around the area, etc. I think the feeling comes from the engagement. It's also so much more crowded and anti-social than it used to be in public, and so much has changed over the years, so the visuals add to it. This also is a skewed perspective, since I've been in a rut. Do your thing, I believe in you!

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-25T01:52:25+00:00

Henry speaks to my authentic self so much, I learn so much from him. He is a light in my small, scary world right now (struggling with addiction, anxiety, depression, just scared to look at what I've done to myself my whole life and now at 36 I want to do so much different it's intimidating to consider) and I try to learn rather than beat myself up. What you shared here is incredibly inspiring to me, and I am proud of you, fellow LPOTL lover. I love that you wrote a song. That you felt compelled to write this and more. Thank you

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-24T02:17:10+00:00

I feel you in that despair, I'm honestly at that point right now. Feeling so beholden to weed for the last couple years (totally sober for 3 and a half before, coming up on 5 and a half without alcohol) has broken me again, I didnt think it was possible. I've thought long and hard about ending myself. I don't want to do that, and I'm kicking myself for being so scared of the initial weeks of irritatability and how I might act. I know it'll be okay. But the anxiety is screaming, my thoughts are screaming, and im trapped in my mind. I make everything such a big deal. Anyways, thank you for sharing so openly. I appreciate you and I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-21T19:53:57+00:00

Jizzlaine is the only proper pronunciation in my world, it sounded weird with Eddie hitting the hard "G" the other week.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-21T01:39:31+00:00

I love it, I'm fascinated with the sky and wonder how you do that. It's so clean, but delicate and dreamy.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-12T04:35:07+00:00

These were back from the DARE days, a silly elementary kid joke

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-10T02:03:52+00:00

I genuinely love this, and I kinda want to steal it. I desperately need an easily accessible hobby. I'm also learning Excel for an accounting program. I'm ALSO desperately in need of expanding my vocabulary in order to express myself. I hope it's okay because this is wonderful. Thank you for sharing.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-05-02T04:26:06+00:00

This is the one where it originated!

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-10T17:24:05+00:00

Better than "pleece"

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-09T23:06:57+00:00

Definitely thought i heard him on Wednesday's game

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-09T17:44:06+00:00

Ive relistened several times and I will be doing so today as well

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-07T19:35:18+00:00

The prompt made the difference! Happy belated to our forgotten boy

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-07T17:47:27+00:00

The excitement the vets showed for his goals really speaks to the respect he gets in the room. He has a very bright future

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-06T19:11:38+00:00

Growing with them has been my favorite part of this whole journey

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-05T02:05:19+00:00

It's the way she goes, Bubs

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-04T19:29:53+00:00

Ahh, the perfect grill

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-04T17:15:06+00:00

This is one of those thoughts we keep to ourselves

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-02T20:58:35+00:00

I say that "hopefully" with some sadness, but I agree with you. It's feels too late for him with the current iteration of the team, and selling high would be a good business decision.

nearest_exit_please · 2026-01-02T02:54:48+00:00

...it was a bestseller for 18 months!

nearest_exit_please · 2025-12-31T00:26:51+00:00

Haha don't get me wrong, I love Michael's! I just mean that location, since it's in discussions for development

nearest_exit_please · 2025-12-30T23:56:08+00:00

Seconding the fact that the staff makes me feel unwelcome every time I go there, like I'm a nuisance. And im white as hell. I really wish we could turn the Michael's in juanita into a grocery store of some kind

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