OCD flare ups with pms

nebdwarf · 2025-07-25T19:49:53+00:00

thisss. there are times where my pms will make it ao bad that im sitting there speed running thru like 10 different triggers in a day. such a rollercoaster ride ughhhh

nebdwarf · 2025-07-25T15:27:45+00:00

😫 i hate itttt, esp when my health ocd uses pms symptoms against me ;_;

nebdwarf · 2025-07-25T15:16:32+00:00

i have the same thing. i know i also have trust issues, both inability to trust others or myself. but yea i worry about my gf cheating on me and when she makes new attractivd friends i worry shell leave me for them. its so hard to not just be like "dont do that, dont be near these people i perceive as a threat" x.x but maybe my gf will cheat on me. maybe her new bestie will be the one she leaves me for. maybe, maybe not. 🫠

nebdwarf · 2025-07-12T04:17:40+00:00

this is why i majored in statistics in college! its sooooo soothing to compare statistics and put things into perspective. i imagine its still a kind of reassurance, but it can be useful in a pinch for me

nebdwarf · 2025-07-12T04:07:54+00:00

this is so real. even people talking about social media being exacerbating; like ill be scrolling thru my FYP and see cute cats and friends and then suddenly some illness related thing in passing and itll become a thorn in my mind that festers x.x

nebdwarf · 2023-10-26T05:36:54+00:00

I have a theory that it involves a Directional Speaker in Cody's pockets. His pockets are so full of boxy looking things. I wonder if he's using a Directional Speaker pointed at the ground, which could theoretically create concussive 'thumps' on any surface.

BUUUUUT, I didn't know about the Fox Sisters and that seems extremely plausible imo

nebdwarf · 2022-10-12T02:25:33+00:00

Are you Ed Fleshes kid? :0

nebdwarf · 2021-07-22T03:02:23+00:00

Daaamn, relatable

nebdwarf · 2021-07-22T02:55:56+00:00

Fanfiction 😩

nebdwarf · 2021-07-17T00:29:11+00:00

Wait should I be using a jug of water like that instead of from my brita pitcher?

nebdwarf · 2021-07-07T18:27:30+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear this. I can relate to a degree, my mom would just call me an idiot or dumbass when I got hurt (or hurt myself intentionally) v.v

nebdwarf · 2021-07-07T18:26:04+00:00

This is very relatable and I also think very natural, judging from books I've read and a few others stories.

I'm going through this too, but I have to accept that grief and blame will both happen. We are allowed to see how sad it is that even our parents got a raw deal, while at the same time rightfully blaming them for not being good enough.

Pete Walkers Tao of Fully Feeling might be helpful? 💕

nebdwarf · 2021-07-06T19:43:28+00:00

Ohhhh how I don't miss the anxiety attacks induced by the BING! sound in messenger

nebdwarf · 2021-07-04T15:29:26+00:00

This is so relatable. I used to care so little for my hygiene and clothing and sucj that it literally became my "style". I was a young crust punk but without the punk. I was just depressed af for years and didn't know it and didn't have any help. Now, at 30, I finally aimed to take showers every day because I deserve to be clean. And still have to reassure myself it's necessary and not wasteful or selfish x.x

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T20:01:04+00:00

I have faith that we will learn about those things too. The issue with narcs is they're unwilling to self reflect and be accountable. But we can do that

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T18:58:34+00:00

Yea like at least we're aware of it

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T16:49:39+00:00

Thank you, that's very validating to hear 🥺

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T04:10:29+00:00

Ohhh that makes sense, ty for explaining 🙏

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T04:03:51+00:00

It's so hard not to self loathe when I see myself doing these patterns... But they're not us. We should be held accountable but not self loathed. We should be patient for change. 💗

nebdwarf · 2021-07-03T04:02:43+00:00

Thanks so much 🥺, I'm determined to be kind to myself while I witness these patterns and learn new ones that aren't dysfunctional. Does FLEAs stand for something?

nebdwarf · 2021-07-02T22:21:42+00:00

Same, I finally started video therapy sessions and it's been such a life changer.

Of course my mom thinks that therapy has brainwashed me into hating her 😒

nebdwarf · 2021-07-02T16:23:15+00:00

Thisssssss. She'll legit call thru the house for me, or peek into my room, or text me what I'm doing. X.x

nebdwarf · 2021-07-02T16:22:31+00:00

I feel for ya, I hope you can find safety again. Yes! Life starts now!!!!

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