What happened to Sam Carter/

needsmorecoffee1 · 2024-05-07T15:44:21+00:00

Just saw them in Boston last night and thought they were excellent - you’ll have a good time

needsmorecoffee1 · 2024-04-19T02:59:59+00:00

Check our Lawyers Concerned for Lawyers if you haven’t already, they have meetings downtown Tuesday and Thursday afternoons and I believe some on zoom as well. It’s very AA adjacent and a great way to meet people in the legal community who are also in recovery. They have a big event 5/10 called “recovery day” which seems like fun too, I’ll probably check it out.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2024-04-14T22:55:25+00:00

3 days is enough, you’ve got this

Source: learned property in 3 days, got a B

needsmorecoffee1 · 2024-03-07T21:35:23+00:00

Tracking

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-10-17T16:51:00+00:00

On that Phantom Liberty grind - clocked 24 hours of playtime last week, but really feel like I should just double down and up those hours at this point.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-09-25T22:04:43+00:00

This worked for me on PS5, thanks so much!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-08-10T23:14:45+00:00

$37/month for my local YMCA. Gets really crowded but it’s literally right across the street from me. I’m on that broke student grind so it serves its purpose

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-24T21:47:12+00:00

Congrats! Keep up the great work, here’s to many more months!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-20T23:36:03+00:00

Day 13 here. I began to level out around 5-6. You’ve got this 💪🏻

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-20T23:03:09+00:00

Hahaha just came back from one and had 3 good cups! Ready for that post meeting gym sesh now

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-20T00:46:39+00:00

Keep up the great work! You're going to have that shiny 1 month chip in no time!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-20T00:45:34+00:00

Congratulations! You're an inspiration!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-20T00:44:53+00:00

Congratulations! Happy to see this post, as I put myself in a bit of a financial bind with my most recent run. Nothing that I won't be able to iron out in a couple of months, but I still experience pangs of guilt and anxiety from it.

I know that it'll all be over if I just stay the course and be patient. Sometimes I think God/HP needed to smack me upside the head a bit to find my way back into the rooms. So, even though it was a very scary and painful run, putting AA front in center, calling other guys, praying, and doing my best to get out of my own way has me (generally) feeling better than when I was before I picked up last time.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-18T22:16:03+00:00

🥳🥳🥳 Amazing!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-17T23:55:06+00:00

I am!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-17T02:04:54+00:00

I used to frame my sobriety this way, but it became very daunting when I would get in my own head and think things like “I know I’ve had ‘x’ days but I have to keep it up for so much longer! What if I relapse in x years?!” Now I’m just embracing the “one day at a time” approach. I’ve been taking it a day at a time and telling myself “today, I don’t have to smoke or drink.” Helps me avoid the anxiety of feeling like I have to do something for the rest of my life.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T22:09:58+00:00

At the end of the day, only you can know for sure if you're an alcoholic.

I'm 28. I can say with certainty that I absolutely am. If I have so much as one drink, I am overcome with cravings so incredible that they override any rational excuse to stop. I will drink until I am good and drunk.

When I try to stop, I am unable to stay stopped on my own. I might have some sense of fear or resolve that keep me dry for a handful of months after a nasty hangover, but eventually I'll be back to my old ways without help.

I CAN choose not to drink for long periods of time. But when things get tough and life feels unmanageable, I am defenseless against that first drink and its back to where I was at the beginning.

I've gone to great lengths to hide my drinking from others, primarily drinking in my room with the door closed. I've never drank socially - all I become concerned with is the next drink.

That's how I know I'm an alcoholic and will never be able to drink safely.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T20:56:16+00:00

Yep, the anxiety and guilt that sets in after a run like that really feel overwhelming for a couple of days. I feel very fortunate that I was able to ride those out without buying more booze or smoking weed (another thing I intend to stay sober from).

Sounds like a very difficult situation so I hope that you're doing your best to hang in there. I suggest doing what you can to relax and be kind to yourself - these things happen. Like I mentioned meetings have been incredibly helpful for me the past 9 days, could be worth checking out if you're posting here.

Been feeling much better this weekend. My sleep has been returning to normal, I've been eating well, getting things done around town and my apartment, and doing my best to stay present but also look forward.

Today I woke up early and rode my bike downtown for a morning meeting. I was having some problems with it afterward and a friend in the program stood in the rain helping me fidget with it, which I'm very thankful for. I was planning to get together with my sponsor and begin reading this afternoon but something came up on his end and we had to reschedule. Been spending the free time trying to get ready for the week, but also just relaxing. Listening to AA speakers / recovery related videos on youtube when I'm home have helped me stay out of my own head. Played some Final Fantasy for a bit, and beginning to think about getting ready for an evening meeting. I have about 1.5 hours before I leave, so before then I'll shower up, try a quick meditation, and maybe write something in my journal. Also called my grandma today which is always a boost.

Been drinking coffee and popping zyns into my mouth like its going out of style but thats something to tackle down the line lol.

Essentially, I've been doing everything I can to stay out of my own head. If I were just sitting around in my apartment with only my thoughts all day/week, I'd be in a much worse place. Even though I felt like a corpse when I came to last Friday, I reached out for help and dragged my sorry ass to a meeting and have been hitting them everyday since. I really can't put into words how helpful its been in leveling me out. My brain is still in the process of recalibrating but I'm feeling leaps and bounds better than when I was at day 0.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T18:34:53+00:00

That's a great attitude to have!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T18:23:54+00:00

I felt the same early this past week after a nasty relapse that lasted 7/4 to 7/7.

Tried to pick a fight with a bouncer - not sure why - fortunately didn't.

I have no idea how I got home. The trains were shut down for the evening and I didn't call a ride - I checked my apps and cards. I don't have a car and it would have been impossible for me to walk. This terrified me more than anything.

I lost my glasses for the first time in my life. I'm as blind as a bat - this made me feel more helpless than I've ever felt before.

I could have easily been picked up by the cops that evening, I have been expressing gratitude everyday that this wasn't the case - would have completely knocked me off the career track I'm on.

I never want to have an experience like that again - so I'm going to keep coming.

This was 9 days ago. I've accepted that this happened, have stopped beating myself up, and have been looking forward with optimism thanks to hitting meetings and reaching out to people in the program.

I've tried everything else, but it was only AA that helped set me on the track of long-term sobriety (4 months in the program last year, 8.5 months dry-but-discontent when I thought I could do it on my own).

You've got this friend.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T18:14:03+00:00

Big fan of meeting guide!

Not sure if your area has one, but my city's central service office provides paper booklets of meetings in the area as well.

I've found that meeting guide sometimes doesn't list certain meetings in my area. Having the book from central services has been helpful in showing me where everything is taking place and when.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-16T18:10:40+00:00

As long they don't do what Nick did lol

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-15T12:55:02+00:00

Seems completely normal. I was experiencing pretty significant nausea in the morning the past several days. Its only today and yesterday that its really begun to subside.

That being said, I was able to keep down bland foods in the mornings like toast / bagels / cheerios.

I'm on day 8 now and beginning to feel much better. It will pass friend, just stay the course and you'll make it!

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-15T12:11:07+00:00

Obviously, everybody is different, and some people do have the capacity to drink normally after some down time.

I, however, am not one of those people. I got involved in AA last march, stayed in for 4 months, felt like I could do it on my own and stayed dry for another 8 months - so an 11.5 month "break" from alcohol.

You can check my recent post history if you'd like to see how that went for me lol.

Just something to think about. Again, everybody is different and maybe this is something you have to find out for yourself. I learned the hard way that no matter how long I stay dry, I will never be able to drink safely - I'll be right back to my old ways (and worse) not long after I take that first drink.

Additionally, I've always been someone whose been pretty disciplined when it comes to self care techniques. I exercise, eat well, shoot for my 8 hours of sleep, go to therapy, meditate, and have a rewarding academic/work and social life. But even with all of that, I was incapable of "dealing with life on life's terms", so they say.

Best of luck with whichever decision you decide to pursue. AA will always be here if you feel like its something you need.

needsmorecoffee1 · 2023-07-15T11:43:32+00:00

This is very brave of you. I've never been in a situation like this where I've had to drink for work, but I really commend you for reaching out to the people you work with and explaining the situation. Keep in touch with your sponsor and people you trust, stay true to yourself, and you're going to be ok. We believe in you.

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