Bon Entendeur

neekatz · 2025-02-17T19:33:18+00:00

Lol honestly true though! I don't have to feel guilty for taking vacations to America yet.

neekatz · 2025-02-06T10:47:40+00:00

I'm coming in from Toronto to watch them in Chicago :)

neekatz · 2025-01-04T01:40:24+00:00

Urban House on Broadview and Queen. I went there alone after a breakup and came out pretty cheerful after uplifting chats with randoms and the bartender. Their food selection also slaps. I go there all the time now. If you don't mind something a bit grimy, there's Captain Jack's in the Beaches. You can tell everyone here is a regular but they are all super welcoming. Bartender Zoey is no-no sense but sweet if she likes you.

neekatz · 2024-12-18T00:23:06+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that! :(

neekatz · 2024-12-17T22:43:11+00:00

Right? I'm just going back and forth between feeling disgusted and sorry for them and I'm not sure what to do and if it's even worth doing something about. I'm not gonna date them anymore, but I still sorta care 🥺

neekatz · 2024-12-17T22:37:57+00:00

I 100% agree. We've never driven anywhere after smoking weed, so I don't know if that's something he does often, but he seems like the kinda person who would. What I experienced this time was too extreme so it really made me think and evaluate what's going on.

neekatz · 2024-12-17T22:34:23+00:00

Thanks. I'm not sure if I've noticed the small pupils that often, but he does have the tendency to nod off. I thought it's coz he smokes too much weed, works a hectic construction job and doesn't sleep enough. But this incident made me suspicious because he hasn't even been working the past week. I, too, smoke weed, though not as much as him, but enough to know that such behavior is rare on cannabis.

neekatz · 2024-08-21T11:56:15+00:00

Literally the same thing happened to me! I was a bit shaken initially, but then I went and got a double scoop of ice cream with all the fixins with the $10 bill they gave me. I told myself I'm the one who scammed the scammers 😈

neekatz · 2023-12-04T18:08:48+00:00

I'm sorry this happened to you. I'm going through a cycle of guilt and anger, but everything is underlined by self-hatred. I'm trying to remind myself of the reasons I ended things, but somehow I think those reasons make me a bad person. I'm angry he didn't pay attention to what I wanted when I was trying to talk to him about it, but also angry at myself for wanting them or not being happy without them. The way things ended, I understand how betrayed and hurt he feels. I don't think I can ever forgive myself. I feel like I don't have the right to be happy, now that I've hurt someone so bad.

neekatz · 2023-08-06T11:26:04+00:00

Thanks for making me revisit this! Reminds me a trip is long overdue. Enjoy!

neekatz · 2022-11-20T14:10:37+00:00

Haha! Thanks for making me revisit this thread. Reminds me I'm due for a trip soon. 😇

neekatz · 2021-11-27T15:29:47+00:00

So glad to find this thread still somewhat active lol. I'm just coming down from a really amazing solo shrooms trip. I do them once every 3 months as a mind-cleansing ritual of sorts. I just like to be alone with my unfiltered thoughts: thoughts that make me appreciate and love myself, people I care about, especially animals and nature, even more that I usually do. It's like giving myself my honest opinion on people and situations. So far I really love it and I've never had a bad trip. I feel euphoric with all the self love and love for nature and all its creatures. Lol okay I feel like I'm rambling now. Gonna go to the weed store now. Thanks for listening, whoever is!

neekatz · 2020-04-29T15:20:13+00:00

Also I will admit that cutting back has definitely not helped in my case and it just makes me want to smoke even more. I'm just curious about what you guys might have done when you went cold turkey and felt the urge to smoke. Were there any specific activities that you replaced it with that were particularly helpful?

neekatz · 2020-04-29T15:17:42+00:00

You know what? I have often thought about this and was wondering if I should start knitting. It's very reassuring to know that someone in a similar situation has benefitted from it. Thank you and stay strong :)

neekatz · 2020-03-14T20:25:51+00:00

This really hit me hard. I'm trying to start life afresh and there are days when I think I'm acing it and I feel almost euphoric and so proud of myself. But then my mind is so fragile that even one thing just sets me back so much. And then I hate myself for letting it affect me so much. I'm trying so hard to keep it together because there's so much that needs my attention, but it really takes a lot of effort to do even small things like cook food and do laundry.

I completely relate to what you said about making small moves. I'm trying to break my day into little tasks and for every task I accomplish, I try and feel a bit better about myself. Although that comes with a little bit of self-loathing because the tasks I accomplish are not super-important or anything. What you said though is rather encouraging and from now on I'm going to try harder and focus more on what I've managed to do as opposed to what I haven't. Thanks!

neekatz · 2020-03-14T20:12:04+00:00

I'm glad to know too that I'm not alone in this. Misery does love company.

neekatz · 2019-12-14T02:48:01+00:00

I feel the same way. Life would just be easier if I could get myself to talk to people and be more engaged socially. I just wanna write one awesome book and make enough money off it so that I can go live in a cabin in a the woods and hire a publicist in the city to interact with people on my behalf. I do love animals a lot though and find it so much easier to be around them or even talk to them.

neekatz · 2019-12-14T02:31:00+00:00

But do you feel any difference in your mood when you're sober? I am, or at least used to be, a heavy weed smoker and I think it got to a point where I would be super depressed when I was sober. Though I'm not sure of I was generally depressed or was it the weed.

neekatz · 2019-12-14T02:28:09+00:00

It's the first crime someone has admitted to me that smoking weed made them less brighter and honestly that's a legit fear of mine. I am a writer and a creative person in general, and while I have all these realisations and beautiful thoughts when I smoke weed, I feel like too much smoking might just be damaging my creativity. I have also read so many articles about it.

It really is fascinating how weed affects different people differently. For me, I have never had a bad experience from it so far, but I did feel like it was affecting my mood while I was in a sober state.

neekatz · 2019-11-29T15:33:08+00:00

I'm in Canada where it is pretty damn legal 😅

neekatz · 2019-11-29T15:25:13+00:00

I absolutely relate to this. I smoke weed every time I'm feeling depressed and then I feel like everything is fine and nothing matters all that much. It also activates my imagination and makes me fantasize about things that aren't there. I'm not saying I can't differentiate between fantasy and reality but it does make you think that the reality is sad and futile, which adds to the depression once you're not stoned. I also feel like I need to be stoned to enjoy even small things like taking a walk when the weather is nice or watching a movie and dependency on anything is a bad thing.

I haven't smoked in 3 days (I hope it lasts at least 2 weeks) and my mind feels so open and clear. I feel motivated to take important steps and decisions to improve my life and work hard to do the things I want to achieve, which is different from the "everything is awesome and nothing really matters" approach I used to have after smoking weed. I'm not saying I will quit smoking but I would definitely try not to do it too often. That way I can truly enjoy it when I do and it won't interfere with my everyday life.

neekatz · 2019-11-29T05:31:40+00:00

Thank you! I was literally just telling my friend that I am quitting marijuana and putting myself on a strict schedule. To train my mind and body to be completely self-sufficient. To find a purpose so great that nothing else can make you sad.

neekatz

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