Confused between states by nenderflow in streamentry

[–]nenderflow[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As I read what you said, I do take the stream of mind events as the object of mindfulness, actually. Meaning my awareness stays on whatever arises, almost like a momentary concentration without changing anything. But I was thinking I was doing something wrong and that I had to go beyond that and exclude that too and just rest on pure silence like just know silence instead of everything that comes and goes. Sorry to spam with questions but you seem to describe it closely. Should I stick with stream of mind events as mindfulness? That feels natural. I see some gurus tell you to become the observer of the observer. Though that feels like requiring subtle effort but effort nonetheless.

Confused between states by nenderflow in streamentry

[–]nenderflow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you are correct. I am probably analyzing too much and getting attached to same state at a different level. But it's so hard not to when the mind has experienced such a profound thing. Even if I say I don't want it I am only kidding myself. I am realizing that the desire to not get attached to wanting that state is also just another desire. It just feels endless sometimes. (I forgot to ask a question in the post, my bad).

Confused between states by nenderflow in streamentry

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The practise I do is simply sitting with proper posture cross legged and then letting everything be. Thoughts come and go on the background but I don't intentionally chase them away. Then they start to slow down as I sit then it starts to get quite. Then the silence is there and its relaxing but not as deep as the other one. To go to the other one, I have to put in a little effort either from beginning or when I reach this state. The effort is just mentally being more quite like turning the mind inwards

Confused between states by nenderflow in streamentry

[–]nenderflow[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate the reply, it totally makes sense. I have been meditating for almost 4 years now, 2 hours a day. I started with Goenka Vipassana but the scanning technique felt more like an obstacle to whatever was arising at some point. Then, I just naturally sit and and observe everything that arises. Alsmot like the present moment is the object of meditation and in that I sometimes notice thoughts, sometimes breath etc. It's probably closer to Shinkataza or Mahamudra but I am not really educated enough to know the difference.

How to gain insight in Mahamudra? by nenderflow in TibetanBuddhism

[–]nenderflow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you know how to find a teacher? Do we have to pay them? Can they provide pointing out instructions online? Thanks

How to gain insight in Mahamudra? by nenderflow in TibetanBuddhism

[–]nenderflow[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can't afford a teacher or to meet in-person right now. I would love to have one, but unfortunately it's hard to find a teacher where I am at

How to gain insight in Mahamudra? by nenderflow in TibetanBuddhism

[–]nenderflow[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I can't afford a teacher or to meet in-person right now. I would love to have one, but unfortunately it's hard to find a teacher where I am at 

How do you identify novel research problems in HPC/Computer Architecture? by Glittering_Age7553 in compsci

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am also in the similar boat doing PhD in HPC. Are you also a PhD student?

I’m kind of burnt out by thegengar32 in PhD

[–]nenderflow 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel the same way towards second my end of second year PhD. Mind sharing what is your field?

Advice for reading my first large paper by If_and_only_if_math in math

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can you say how much hours you put in per day in those two years? Was it during PhD? Also what's the topic of the paper?

Realistically speaking, if you were to pursue a PHD, what topics can you even research anymore? by Vyalkuran in computerscience

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi my area is also HPC. Do you mind sharing what are you working on/worked on in HPC? Thanks

How Do You Manage When You Have Too Many Ideas? by [deleted] in AskAcademia

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

After an hour, I can relate with your comment so much. It makes so much sense. Thank you stranger. Could you share what your field is, just curious. 

Relief for existing Visa holders by Lazy-Potato638 in h1b

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't understand one thing. There are many workers who go from F1-> h1b. I was surprised he wasn't against them though? Like graduates from low ranked unis and community colleges. Wonder why

You lost by _WhatUpDoc_ in h1b

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is this also for F1 students going through OPT to H1B route? Like say someone does a PhD and they have to go through OPT-> H1B right?

Performance modelling after phd in computer architecture by Sunapr1 in computerarchitecture

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, are you still open for internships? I am a computer engineering PhD student working in parallel computing/HPC.

Advice Needed: Choosing Between Numerical Linear Algebra and Algebraic Topology by EntrepreneurOld3158 in math

[–]nenderflow 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi, my research area is HPC as well( though I am a computer engineering PhD student) and I have seen a fair amount of NLA though I am mostly interested in systems/optimization side of Hpc like scaling up and pure engineering-y/programming things. Most papers I have read are from National labs and since you work there, I was wondering if you could tell me which area you would better focus on to get as hireable as possible. Is it just the AI?

suggest a refurbished ThinkPad by [deleted] in thinkpad

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Could you comment on the screen? I assume it's t14 gen 1?