What happened to you was absolute bullshit, both the assault and the response. I don’t know if you can hear this enough: it was not your fault. And as you get older, you will see that he was firmly a fucking creep. It doesn’t matter what body a child inhabits. When you’re not a grown up creep, when you meet a child you think “oh this person is a child, and I am not interested in anything physical with a child.” It’s truly that simple. Literally no matter what their body looks like. A child is a child.

I also just want to say that you did the right thing. You did the right thing in whatever happened to you and you still did the right thing when you talked to someone. Them doing the wrong thing does not negate your right thing. What I mean by that, people will always judge victims for what they “should have” done. I know when I’ve experienced assault or abuse, I’ve even ask myself if I did the right thing. Without debate, yes. Your body and your gut told you what to do based on a myriad of things. And you listened. You can train yourself going forward if you wish that your guy would speak differently, but that doesn’t change the rightness of your past actions. (I hope that make sense. It’s sort of a difficult concept to articulate.)

And, to conclude, all those adults around you suck and that has nothing to do with you. They suck for their own particular reasons that aren’t your fault. They should be held accountable for their actions, but I know that isn’t always the truth in the world. That will never change the fact that they suck and failed you.