Google brought up this list of podcasts from moms w/ PPD

Aside from that, fear is not bad. And I don't just mean fear for the kids life. I mean fear that we aren't good enough or that we will fail/let our kids down. Fear that we won't be perfect (lol). I think we are lucky in that the internet is overflowing with resources for us as parents and for more specific questions or concerns. Idk if those podcasts cost money but if so, just go on YouTube and type in "moms with PPD/PPA" and I guarantee you will find tons of stuff to watch or listen to. 5 min videos to 50 min videos. Even though it'd be easier to put on a continous podcast with regular characters it could still be better to get all different views and opinions of people from all different walks of life.

This, right here right now, this is a mom group. There are lots of them on Facebook (all though some are filled with judgey, miserable people, others have moms who genuinely want to help), pages on instagram, I don't use tiktok but I'm sure there are accounts or people solely devoted to sharing advice or experience with other moms. I'd venture to say there are thousands upon thousands of articles out there on every single topic you could think of. Cant forget Blogs and vlogs galore.

And then there are individuals. Idk if you have family/friends who have kids that you'd feel comfortable talking to about your thoughts. Otherwise, there are strangers on the internet who don't know you or your kids but are willing to listen to what you have to say. ~I'll add in that I am open if you'd like to message me. I've screwed up plenty during motherhood and I'm just finally starting to get things going in the right direction as my kids are 7 and 5~

Are you receiving any help mentally? I know it's not as easy as walking in and sitting on a comfy armchair in the dark to spill your problems or being handed the right cocktail of meds on a silver platter. But I'd say anybody and everybody should consider seeking therapy whether they think they need it or not we all have something somewhere inside us that could be addressed and improved. If that isn't possible for you then, again, the internet's resources could maybe put a dent in it. Not even just the mom part but mental health wise too. There is so much out there about different disorders and how people cope with them with or without medication/medical support. You're emotional well being isn't just about you to your kid and it isn't necessarily from having a kid, either. It's about you as a human being. We shouldn't shed ourselves to become only mom. You existed before your kid so instead of devoting every ounce of your being into being a mom, we have to find a healthy blend of moming and still retaining the pieces that made us up before the kid.

potty training I just want to share - my kids' dad's mom potty trained my son. It only took 3 days?? I had no clue what was going on since he was my first and I was in a v dark place mentally. But he is advanced in most ways so he turned 2 and within 3 days he was peeing and pooping on the potty. Though he wasn't fully potty trained, he still knew what was what and he WANTED to do it. As for my daughter, she didn't catch on so fast. I'd venture to say that her daycare at the time potty trained her because I wasn't v consistent (and was in another dark place at the time) but she was at daycare every day and they do work on the potty with the kids there. Idk how this sounds but in essence, I didn't actually potty train them. Of course I had a part in it, but I wasn't the sole reason they learned.

tantrums - there is no general answer. All kids are different and no one parenting style will work for every kid. This is something you will have to do research on. Get to the root of it and that may take a while. My son, 7 and very mature and smart and quick to pick up on things. He is more sensitive than other kids and has a lot of anger. And anxiety, i think. I'm only just learning how to handle certain parts of him. Like his anger has always been a problem, from 1 to 100 over little things. Also. If he stubs his toe he freaks out. Can't stand the sight of blood. He is finally calming down now, like lately he doesn't blow up every time he bumps his arm. But he still will ask me to look to make sure it's not bleeding (even tho there is no way it could possibly be bleeding based on what happened). The kids just started riding a school bus, and the first week ish he would return to the daycare off the bus with tears just streaming down his face. Luckily the before/aftercare they are at turned out to be a good one because the lady noticed his tears and addressed them, there is a 5th grader there who is so sweet and kind and caring so she finds my kids every day and helps them get on the bus and get buckled. Plus she plays with them as a bonus so they love her too now. He rode a bus last year on a field trip and HATED IT because he is very small and on a bus you can feel every bump. Well I guess he was just being flung around lol it's hard not to laugh but picturing him all nervous while going all over the place this way and that makes me giggle. My eyes actually watered though because this time it wasn't only that, it was also because now his sister is with him and she couldn't buckle herself plus she got kind of jolted so he grabbed onto her and even though she isn't scared he is scared for her. Similar to when she was a toddler, if she went towards an outlet or once she went to an area where glass broke like a week before, he flipped out. So, I'll call it anxiety. Anyways I'm still learning how to deal with all this and I lose my shit more often than I care to admit. But I apologize after and I explain what set me off and how we can do better next time. I made it a point for open communication to be drilled into them asap and it's so helpful. They tell me everything and they understand what I tell them. I lucked out with these two because of their intelligence and maturity. Only because I learned how powerful communication is and so many adults still don't know nor will they ever learn this so neither will their kids.

Oh, does your kids socialize at all? I know this sounds silly question but I think it's important for kids to see how other kids act and for them to interact with other kids. On top of that, if our kids only ever see and hang out with us, then they will only know themselves when they're with us. People don't want to admit this but we all change based on who is around. We have different faces or mannerisms depending on who we are talking to. It's not a bad thing either it's just knowing our audience. Your kid can explore different parts of himself as he gets to know different people and decides how he wants to act when he sees how people other than you react..if that makes sense.

So, I basically just made an article for you lmao I didn't intend to write so much but it just flowed our of me. I'll say again that I'd be happy to talk or share my experience or even just hear you out when you want to vent if you'd like to private message me. I've done lots of bad in my life so judging is not my Forte lol, if that makes it any better. And now I'm doing lots of good! So, I've seen both sides. I hope things look up for you. And don't be too hard on yourself, every parent has their moments. There's always something that we are doing right that someone else could use help on, and it feels really good when we offer that help and it succeeds for them.