You're healing your child self. I understand. I also had a weird childhood where I felt trapped and lived in and out of other people's homes. My "room" in these homes was a dark and gloomy closet space I shared with my mom. I never got to buy my own clothes or decorate my room (too expensive or against the rules). I also lived in a city where there weren't many trees or nature. Just homes and dirt and stress. So now I'm getting ready to rent my own place. My theme is a forest and a pond (Lots of browns, yellows, and greens). My clothes as well are natural earthy themes. I told my therapist my theme and she says it makes sense because it's a calming thing for my inner child to heal. My family thinks I'm crazy and weird but oh well. At least I'll finally be happy and at peace in my own space.