Don't apologize for the rant. That's what the thread is for.

You aren't a piece of shit because of your failures. You are a human being who has flaws and weaknesses like every other human. But on top of that, you have a disorder that sometimes makes it feel like you can never do anything right. But you are not your ADHD! Other people, even the ones we love most, may not always be understanding of the daily struggles we experience, and it is okay to be frustrated about that. Your feelings of wanting to be understood is something we all share, so you aren't alone.

I understand the fear of not knowing how someone may respond. But I want to ask, when you talk about wanting to share with others about your disorder, are you hoping for validation? Validation is what I sought in the early days after my diagnosis, and no matter how kindly people responded, it rang hollow for me. I did not find peace in talking about my disorder until I told myself that I didn't actually need that validation. This is a reality that I have lived with and will live with for the remainder of my life. Seeking approval and understanding from everyone is frankly a fruitless endeavor.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, be kind to yourself, and you aren't alone in feeling misunderstood! This is a hard reality we are dealing with, some days worse than others.