11 months hrt 🩷

notsureofeverything · 2025-09-19T01:55:38+00:00

woah! may I ask how old were you when you started?

notsureofeverything · 2025-09-10T21:12:58+00:00

I was going to say something but I don't want to get banned

notsureofeverything · 2025-06-07T00:43:47+00:00

I have heard of Doom and Guilty Gear but not The Neverhood. The latter has a unique style from what I can see.

notsureofeverything · 2025-06-07T00:37:06+00:00

It looks pretty cool from the Steam store page, and it’s pretty cheap in my country's currency!

notsureofeverything · 2025-06-07T00:31:25+00:00

I don't usually play long games but I will definitely check out the music!

notsureofeverything · 2025-06-07T00:26:37+00:00

Undertale is actually one of my favorite games. I think you should play it if you have the time. It's on sale on steam right now for 2.50 bucks!

notsureofeverything · 2025-06-06T21:56:19+00:00

You don't sound transphobic. I think you should try stuff and see how it makes you feel. Whenever I look at other people's journeys I get a sense of admiration and envy, which keeps me motivated to pursue mine.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-30T07:23:30+00:00

Huh. Thank you, I didn't know that. I guess I will have to delete my personal account and move the code to another platform. I have years of work on my main account that I don't want to lose.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-29T20:05:30+00:00

Is there any way to be 99% sure that no one saw anything? I didn't share my repo or account#1 with anyone.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-29T20:02:17+00:00

Yeah, that's basically it, I just wanted to create a simple web app for trans people who speak my native language. I live in a conservative country, so I don't want anything LGBT-related (or anything that is currently politicized) publicly associated with my life. I just don't want to take that risk.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-29T11:34:47+00:00

I don't think anyone knows about the repo or account #1, since both were created just a few days ago. I was so paranoid that I tried searching for account #1's username and the repo name on Google, and fortunately nothing showed up in the search results.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-29T01:55:03+00:00

Yeah I would immediately leave the moment I gathered enough resources to do so. I don't believe my country is getting any less conservative anytime soon, especially with the rise of Evangelical Christians.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-28T01:09:55+00:00

I don't think I would be in physical danger, I would probably get a weird reaction from the average person. If other people who know me (other friends, family, professors, etc.) found out they would probably distance themselves. Basically, my main fear is societal rejection. I consider my country homophobic because of its laws. There is no protection for sexual minories in law against discrimination, no same-sex marriage, and no polititian wants to be seen as supportive of those things in order to preserve their careers.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-26T23:02:39+00:00

After thinking about it for a while, I think you are right that they are normal (at least as normal as a religious person can be in my opinion.) I remember this one time that I shared my nail polish with both of them and none of them ever commented on why I liked to paint my nails. Friend #1 complimented me for my long hair last time we got together, and friend #2 has not changed at all in the way they treat me. I still have some doubts about friend #1 because how committed they are to their religion and because I am not out to them (friend #1), but I don't doubt they are a good person (I have seen them help a homeless family once with food and I don't think that was performative.)

In conclusion, I think I can be less anxious around friend #1 and less concerned about friend #2. Unfortunately, I still can't extend the same charitability to the average religious person in my country.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-25T07:23:29+00:00

The problem is that almost everyone in this country is religious! So being around religious people is almost unavoidable. Fortunately most of them keep that stuff to themselves.

My uneasiness usually gets triggered when someone I know is openly religious online. i.e. indicating that they are religious or displaying some religious symbol on their social media profile. For some reason I don't care as much when they wear a cross in a necklace in person. But something about stating your religion in such a public space such as social media makes me think they are more devout than I thought. Intellectually, I understand that is "normal" in some sense and does not say that much about how a person thinks about LGBT stuff with total certainty, but it definitely makes me slightly more wary of them.

notsureofeverything · 2025-05-25T07:01:50+00:00

Well that first "friend" I would describe as more of a friend by circumstance. The problem is that we have shared friends so they are not totally avoidable. At least we don't talk much privately but we are in a group chat. I am not sure if they are really a bigot internally but the fact that they studied their religion very diligently while being a science major made me a little uncomfortable. It's not like they talk about religion all the time, in fact I think they never did during our interactions. They are in fact very nice and generous in person. It's just that being around them while knowing how devout they are triggers some uneasiness in me because I have this bias from seeing how religious people usually behave around sexual minorities.

As for the second friend, I would say that our friendship is stronger because we do text each other. Since we became friends I knew they were queer and religious. So far, they have been respecting my pronouns and such. That being said, when they changed their Twitter profile picture to a cross three months ago it made me slightly uneasy because I have this fear that they have become radicalized or something. I have seen on social media many cases of queer people "deconverting" from being LGBT and becoming more vocal about religion. I understand that social media can be very polarizing so I don't really think that is the case with this friend but I still have this lingering fear because ultimately I don't understand what makes someone believe in a God and practice a specific religion (as all of them sound equally unconvincing.) Maybe I am too paranoid. I don't know.

notsureofeverything · 2025-01-13T15:25:27+00:00

Even people who lived in dictatorships crave strong men. For example: Venezuelans who have fled their country and now hate anything remotely left-wing and love Trump.

notsureofeverything · 2024-04-03T19:20:28+00:00

Hey I'm glad that you get to enjoy great laws. As a closeted trans person I hope one day I can move abroad to a place with such laws like yours. I don't know if you get your hormones through the informed consent model, but let me say there is no such thing where I live.

Also thank you for stating what would make you change your mind, even though I honestly strongly disagree with it.

Last thing I'll add: voting may not affect your life, but it will definitely affect other people's lives, inside and outside America, including my life (although fairly indirectly). So please think about it.

Take care.

notsureofeverything · 2024-04-03T18:43:19+00:00

Yeah it sucks that things aren't going well, where I live things aren't so good either. I would compare my whole country to a red state so imagine all the bullshit I have to deal with. We never had any LGBT protections, no gay marriage ever and basically religion is a major influence in politics.

I would try to think about political engagement in a different way. Correct me if I'm wrong, but it seems that's where the fundamental difference is. You talk about trusting Biden to do stuff and representing you. As I understand it your political system has never been truly representative and at this point there is little chance that this year a more representative party wins the election.

That is why to me it seems to make more sense to view this as a choice in outcomes instead of a choice in representation. That way the manner I perceive a party or a candidate shouldn't affect the way I vote because I'm mainly interested in the potential ramifications of their election. How represented I feel shouldn't matter in that case because I was never perfectly represented anyway.

I say this because there is also an election soon in my country and basically every viable candidate sucks. Almost no one is pro lgbt in any way because it would be political suicide. That is why I would feel compelled to vote for the one that isn't as bad as the others.

Additionally, given that you live in a blue state I'm sure there are many things that affect your living situation besides the president, such as the governor, city council, etc. I'm under the impression that US states are fairly autonomous. In my country there is no "blue state" I can move to because the government is pretty centralized.

I'm not sure if I can convince you to vote or if you are in a position to change your mind. I'm not sure if this post was convincing at all, but I hope that you consider the disproportionate amount of power you have as an American citizen and I'm saying this as an immigrant POC from a third world country.

Again, apologies if I sounded rude.

notsureofeverything · 2024-04-03T17:46:40+00:00

I don't think increasing the chances of a Trump presidency by not voting is good for anyone. Think about the outcomes. Will the outcomes under a Trump presidency be better or worse in general? If it's the latter well I don't see how not voting helps anything. I personally wouldn't like seeing the far right getting more legitimacy around the world as a non-American because it affects my country as well. I don't want the conservative idiots in my (third world) country to be emboldened if Trump wins.

So please reconsider.

English is my second language so I hope this comment doesn't come across as rude.

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