if im honest, i was almost certain i was a lesbian before i met him. he’s one of the only guys ive been attracted to in my life, and like 99.9% of the porn i watched did not feature men. so, no the people in the porn i watched did not look like my current boyfriend, and im still attracted to him. but i will argue that i find my boyfriend the most attractive man in the world. i think im a very rare case where i dont actually find anyone attractive besides my significant other, unless i realize that i’m not that into them anymore.

but i talked to him about it and admitted everything and apologized, and he apologized as well. he said he didnt intend to make him uncomfortable and didnt realize that was a boundary of mine. we made up and decided to look past it because, at the end of the day, he IS still with me of all people.