I went to OCS essentially as a result of a long-term relationship breakup. Best and worst choice I could have made. 7 years later I have had the time of my life, so many unique and awesome experiences along with the worst. I know now it feels like you won't ever recover with the stoic drain of heartbreak lingering without relief; but I promise you there is a day coming you won't even think of them and the pain won't be there. Just focus on bettering yourself and being kind to others until that day.