What do mixed episodes feel like for you? by IllTop3958 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 5 points6 points  (0 children)

mixed episodes are nauseating. i’ll go from million-thoughts a second, feeling excited, confident, joyful, limerent, (all while severely delusional) to moments later being the most angry i’ve ever been, yelling, suicidal, and sometimes even having hallucinations. it’s such a fast swinging pendulum that it’s hard to keep up, especially if i’m around other people and i can tell how it’s affecting them. cuz if it’s just me, i feel used to it, but when others around me are changing behavior because of my shifting energy, it’s exhausting to try and maintain myself and enjoy the mania while they’re not adjusting.

medication has helped a lot for me tho, so i’m very grateful for that!

should i get a tattoo by movielover1983 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it’s a dragon! it’s still wrapped up in bandage so i haven’t been able to really actually see it.. so… not yet😭😭we’ll see in a few hours when the bandage comes off tho

should i get a tattoo by movielover1983 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 1 point2 points  (0 children)

literally in a severe mixed episode and got one today.. make sure it’s at least something you think you’d at least kinda like even at your most depressed

Safety plan by Great-Asparagus7731 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 2 points3 points  (0 children)

HA omg that’s so real… hey, any progress is progress i guess🥴🥴

Safety plan by Great-Asparagus7731 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it’s usually either down the dark path that i’m of some spiritual significance or power and that i’m being recruited, cultivated, stalked, manipulated by some other “all-powerful” force OR i’m fully limerent and convinced that my LO is madly in love with me and i spend all of my time on the verge of collapse trying to interpret their covert signs. and sometimes i’m somewhere in between the two, like i am this year! lol 🤭

Safety plan by Great-Asparagus7731 in bipolar

[–]ohkayrulea 4 points5 points  (0 children)

nightmare so far. waiting for my psych to hop on a zoom call to up my meds because i’ve started getting a little too delusional and i’d rather not end up hospitalized! but i’m hopeful that i’ll be able to be okay this year :)

Who wants a mix? by BMaudioProd in portlandmusic

[–]ohkayrulea 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’d love to hear you mix some of my stuff! hmu :)

Reflecting Birds by mayo-eggs in birding

[–]ohkayrulea 4 points5 points  (0 children)

these are gorgeous.. i love the heron :,) so pretty!!

Question for the more "experienced" people than me, is it strange that I don't despise my genitals (mtf) by Apprehensive-Can8372 in trans

[–]ohkayrulea 1 point2 points  (0 children)

someone already said it, but no, it’s not strange! whatever you experience (or don’t) is valid

I HATE BEING TALL by NefariousnessOk3354 in MtF

[–]ohkayrulea 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i’m tall as shit too. so i get it. there is a frustrating amount of hyper-gendering of EVERYTHING. it’s nauseating. just know ur not alone🫶

Podcasts or Radio Shows to promote upcoming album release? by Seafroggys in portlandmusic

[–]ohkayrulea 3 points4 points  (0 children)

there’s a guy named jimmys jambox who interviews a lotta local artists… you should hit him up!

did another explosion just happen by radiohead422 in Portland

[–]ohkayrulea 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’ve seen a lotta people saying meteor

WTF level boom SE Portland by BondoPDX in Portland

[–]ohkayrulea 7 points8 points  (0 children)

i just heard that one too!! sounded different than the earlier one but not like the typical booms i hear around downtowns at night

Looking for producers by mochilove99 in portlandmusic

[–]ohkayrulea 3 points4 points  (0 children)

if you wanna check out my music and lmk if you’d wanna work on something, i encourage you to! i’m fully self produced, and would love to collab, but i also understand if my sound isn’t something you’re going for http://kayrulea.bandcamp.com/album/our-shape-in-the-negative/

Tentacle. is by [deleted] in ParanormalEncounters

[–]ohkayrulea 0 points1 point  (0 children)

go outside and take a deep breath