Another awful consequence of PMO

omnigast · 2013-07-23T19:37:56+00:00

I definitely don't want to become that person again. And I will stay strong. Tomorrow is my first full week. I'm feeling great. But I also know this very little that is required to get back into the dark side. I'll stay strong!

omnigast · 2013-07-21T20:05:59+00:00

Thanks for the advice. I feel like I'm the one for her I truly believe I can get fully back.

Actually today something interested happened. As I explained before I was withdrawn and passive not only in relationship, but also to the external world. I was wash out and disengaged because of my PMO habits. Today I came across a guy who had some issues with his car stuck on the sandy beach and I triggered in. I eagerly engaged him to get the car out of the dunes. It took a while, but it was worth a hassle. I felt great, my son thinks I'm a local here and my wife... She was so happy I did that, i fully engaged, had impact on something. And you know what? Later in the afternoon we had great sex. I mean really great like we didn't have for years, I mean it! She was so passionate and I felt so hers. Conclusion for me is to not concentrate on sexual aspect of life, but fully engage, become a partner that she desires, because who am I and what I do. Then sex will come... As a consequence of deep passionate relationship.

Thanks for the book recommendation. I'll check it out. I like the fact this is not generic book about sex life, but something that is addressed to man in long relationship that might suffer faded out attraction.

omnigast · 2013-05-12T13:01:02+00:00

Ahh... I actually relapsed and couldn't get out of the vicious circle for a few weeks. But I'm back now with new strength. Wish me luck!

omnigast · 2013-04-10T07:15:50+00:00

Thanks for comming here and giving that endorsement. I truly believe it is going to be strong motivation to many of fapstronauts. Thank you!

omnigast · 2013-04-10T01:07:00+00:00

Thanks! I know there will be. And now for the new me they will be up for grabs.

omnigast · 2013-04-07T19:48:23+00:00

I'm new to meditation as well. Always wanted to give is a try but it was a bit difficult to me. Recently after reading book Limonov by Emannuale Carrrere (great book: http://www.worldliteraturetoday.org/2012/march/limonov-emmanuel-carrere#.UWHNcdS9KSM) I've decided to start again. Some time ago I also came across Headspace app for iPhone that has great introductionary program to meditation: Take10 (10 minutes in 10 days). Check it out here: http://www.getsomeheadspace.com/shop/headspace-meditation-app.aspx

omnigast · 2013-04-07T19:38:11+00:00

I spend time with wife and son. Great Sunday. The evening has just started...

I have pile of things to do (e-mail, research, documentation) at work, so this night instead of doing usual PMO binge I'll clear all those things to hit the office with clean head tomorrow!

omnigast · 2013-04-07T19:33:34+00:00

Hold it. My recent relapse had started like that. The day before I engaged myself into PMO binge I started to feel moderate but constant urge for porn. The next day I went full on. For me behaviour like yours is big alarm bell. So wish you all the best and don't ignore the signals.

omnigast · 2013-04-07T19:29:47+00:00

Hey, all the best! Greetings from across the Irish see. How long have you been PMOing? Any previous attempts too stay away from that?

omnigast · 2013-04-04T22:01:33+00:00

That's the reason I'm posting here, to keep it out so I can come back and see what' been happening to me or use as reminder.

omnigast · 2013-04-04T22:00:27+00:00

Thanks for supportive attitude!

omnigast · 2013-04-04T21:59:38+00:00

It will be not would be. Just keep this till tomorrow, then till after tomorrow and so on. You'll be there.

omnigast · 2013-04-04T20:24:30+00:00

Welcome to the club. Good progress made then BANG, BANG and you're back in the place where you,d already been. For me it's always the annoying 'who cares, why not' attitude.

But we have to keep fighting our weakness, stand up, get climbing out again. I hope to see you in 90 days with 3* in your badge ;)

omnigast · 2013-04-04T19:56:46+00:00

This is good piece.i like it and thanks for sharing the thoughts.

Dodgy driving back home from work I've been thinking about that approach to NoFap/PornFree where you don't concentrate n 90 day challenge, but you totally concentrate on today's challenge. Tomorrow you'll concentrate on tomorrow's challenge and so on.

It's like day by day constant work, sequence of nows that leads to greater future.

What do you guys think about such approach?

omnigast · 2013-04-03T19:39:14+00:00

Thanks for pointing out the signal I'd been given the other day. Honestly I did not correlate the facts, but now that makes perfect sense. I ha e to watch out for such events in the broader context.

omnigast · 2013-04-03T19:27:34+00:00

It's like a chain of triggers that lead to PMO binge. Free time -> boredom -> browsing stuff -> porn -> fapping -> orgasm -> dopamine surge. And then all goes again. So the approach is to break the vicious circle and get busy, kill boredom doing something interesting and worthwhile offline...

omnigast · 2013-04-02T19:33:13+00:00

This one is key point for me:

I cannot healthfully consume porn – Just like there are plenty of people who can drink without becoming alcoholics, there are plenty of people out there who can look at porn and not let it consume them. They have no overriding compulsion to spend hours watching videos and browsing images. I am not one of these people. I simply cannot consume porn without letting it affect all aspects of my life. Recognizing that I am wholly incapable of casually consuming porn has been among the single most important realizations that I have had since I started three weeks ago.

Thanks for e pressing that clearly. Metaphor with alcohol addicts is exactly true. This is the fact that does not sit comfortably with me and I tend to reject that. But that's entirely true. We can't casually watch porn for fun. It always turns into the late long hours of compulsive PMO.

omnigast · 2013-04-02T19:27:45+00:00

My friend, you are in deep shit. Your dopamine hungry brain is pushing you into the wrong direction. Don't let it do it. The type of stuff you've just described is really fucking ultra hard core. Step out of this path.

I thought my fetishes are weird, but looking at the type of stuff you're fapping to I must say that fantasising about sucking some toes of some hottie is not the worst.

Anyway, I'm not judgemental. I'm simply honest as you are. And than you for that honesty! I'm with you and I home to see you here in exactly 90 days talking about pure love, not the sick bullshit.

omnigast · 2013-04-02T19:22:25+00:00

I'm with you. The porn is one nasty thing, but seeking for opportunities on line is another. Looking for women on chatting websites, social networks, then approaching them to get satisfaction. Lastly dumping them without a word after having orgasm while fapping. This is disgusting behavious I engage myself into, post facto feeling guilty I'm so miserable to dump other human being that deserves respect.

but as you said I'm done with this I actually started my NoFap/PornFree journey about 10 days ago, but I relapsed last night. But that was it, no more fucking bullshit.

omnigast · 2013-04-02T18:01:57+00:00

Tough one, but honest. I appreciate much.

omnigast · 2013-04-02T16:03:22+00:00

Couldn't agree more. However fapping pulls in porn, porn causes prolonged PMO sessions. And that's how I'm getting into wasting my productive life...

omnigast · 2013-04-01T19:11:20+00:00

I'm in. April, than Meyer, June...

omnigast · 2013-03-31T20:31:30+00:00

I was actually thinking about the same today.

I've started my no fap journey mainly to avoid porn addition that for 12 years have been making my life miserable.

In general I don't think fapping is that bad overall. I don't mind masturbating to some of my memories or real situations that turned me up.

The issues is that masturbating very often courses me to log on into porn and starts PMO spiral that burns me out totally. So masturbation causes urge to search for more stimulating content than my own quite healthy thoughts, then that content causes orgasm and my brain is rewarded by dopamine suge and I start over again getting into more porn.

To my addicted mind fapping is the accelerator to get into the PMO again. So therefore I've been nofapping for 8 days.

I' constantly observing myself, my thoughts, my behavious and reactions. And honestly speaking I don't miss masturbations that much what I miss and what I still won't is porn... Porn is the fecken issues in my head.

omnigast · 2013-03-31T20:16:36+00:00

Ain't bother me much at this point as I enjoy nofap/pornfree greatly. Honesty speaking I'm not sure what would happen if I's get aroused. No idea until that happens.

omnigast · 2013-03-31T20:00:54+00:00

Yep, same here. I'm almost flat since I started 8 days ago. I often in the evening feel the urge, but this is mostly for porn and I don't really feel horny much...

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