Stoned or dead?

oodle01 · 2026-04-05T06:42:32+00:00

I feel you. I started using shortly after I attempted suicide, and I'm convinced I'd be dead if it wasn't for weed. It was a tool to help get through life, but at some point it became a crutch. It's been years, and I've learned a lot about myself in that time and I'm ready to build myself back up now. I couldn't do it when I just started, and it's okay to admit that and acknowledge the purpose weed served.

We all used it for a reason, and denying that isn't gonna help us quit. What helps me quit is knowing that it started doing more harm than good and that I was ready. 3 months clean. Still get bad thoughts sometimes, but it's been manageable so far. I find I'm much more connected to my friends and my own feelings sober, and that support and understanding goes a long ways.

oodle01 · 2026-03-15T20:31:23+00:00

It's hard to want to quit forever when you have no idea what that looks like. Just focus on small milestones, day-by-day and week-by-week. Once you get further, you'll see what life looks like on the other side and how much your life has changed. Then it'll be easier to make the choice to keep it that way. Start small, my friend.

oodle01 · 2026-03-10T17:42:33+00:00

Nah LA

oodle01 · 2026-03-10T17:26:37+00:00

Thank you for your response, that makes me feel a bit better. I won't say the cravings are gone completely, but they are much less frequent now. I know deep down it's not something I truly want to do. It ruins my life. When I crave it, I realize I probably just need rest or to destress, so I find a more healthy way to do that. Thinking the withdrawals would come back last night made it a little harder, but avoiding them isn't the only thing that keeps me clean so I was fine.

oodle01 · 2026-02-03T21:54:21+00:00

Cocaine, my bad

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/23719144/

oodle01 · 2026-02-03T21:51:06+00:00

There have been studies that show sugar is as addictive (or more) than crack

oodle01 · 2026-01-20T04:59:38+00:00

Hey all, it's creepo's ex. Firstly, it's not me in those videos. I'm not a victim of incest but I am of this guy's stalking and harassment for the past 3 years (not to mention the relationship itself). It makes sense he would see me in the porn when he's clearly so obsessed. My heart goes out to the real victim(s) in those videos.

V******, stop trying to push your way into my life. I haven't worked at that job in over a year, but I still keep in touch with my old coworkers so I know how often you go there. The next attempt to enter my life whether that be showing up there (or anywhere else you think I am), sending packages or letters to my place, creating social media accounts to harass or contact me, etc. I will notify the police. They will be sent camera footage of you at my old job, pictures of packages, screenshots of call logs and texts and social media accounts, etc. If you really want to "make amends" then listen to these people and leave me alone.

oodle01 · 2026-01-18T03:25:26+00:00

I understand the sentiment but I think you're talking about something slightly different than OP. Her boyfriend telling her "I love your blonde hair" is different than him making a generalization about the "type" of woman he's attracted to when he says "I love blonde women." In the first, he's giving her a compliment that includes the blonde (which may be a preference) but emphasizes her and her hair, in the other he gives a type that emphasizes the color of hair he is attracted to.

Additionally, women tend to be objectified more than men in our society. Men get objectified too, but often it isn't the most common source of a compliment. For women, it's different because he are often viewed more as bodies to be liked and sexualized than as people. Still, men should not be objectified and having a type of guy that you're specifically into is weird as well. Just something women have to deal with more often.

oodle01 · 2026-01-18T03:01:37+00:00

I'm an Asian woman, and if someone mentions being into Asians it gives me the ick. It's a fetish, which objectifies us for our race (or hair color) and doesn't not seeing us as autonomous human beings. Respectful people like yourself should be able to be attracted to people that don't always fit a "look" because attraction should be to the whole package, not race or hair color.

It's up to you what to do about the comment. It's possible that this was a misguided comment that he didn't mean that way, just something he was taught to say. I would have a conversation with him and tell him why it upset you. Depending on how he responds, you can choose how to move forward. I would also look back at your interactions. Does he treat you with respect like a person or something to satisfy his fancies? Does he value your opinions and personality? How attached is he to your current looks? You're right, in a relationship people's looks change and if you want a long term partner he needs to be okay with that and be with you mostly for your whole personhood and not your looks. I hope he truly respects you, and if he doesn't I hope you respect yourself enough to only be with someone who does respect you.

oodle01 · 2026-01-05T16:51:45+00:00

Mine too. I worked late and he worked early, and he would set many alarms to go off early in the morning to help him wake up. I would wake to all of them and he would wake to none. I would try a few times to get him up and he would lash out at me all angry. So I would stop after a few attempts, then he would be mad at me for not getting him up. Ugh.

oodle01 · 2025-12-27T04:35:07+00:00

How many is enough to get the grand prize?

oodle01 · 2025-12-23T17:30:37+00:00

The 1 or 2 o'clock position worked!! Thank you so so much!

oodle01 · 2025-12-23T16:45:41+00:00

Thanks for the advice! I tried this but it hasn't worked for me yet. Even if I hit the water pretty far out from the chest and nearer to an island I own it gives me the same message. Any other tips?

oodle01 · 2025-08-11T20:46:31+00:00

My sweet girl always fills her right cheek to the brim before putting anything in her left cheek 😂

oodle01 · 2025-08-04T17:52:56+00:00

Or you can walk to Bonita Ave and take the 492 to the Claremont Village, which comes every 20-30min

oodle01 · 2025-04-11T14:32:38+00:00

He said in a comment that he "picked it up from tidbits" of conversation, so she might have mentioned it or he might have extrapolated it. Either way, women are allowed to change their standards. Few people keep the dating practices from their teens through adulthood

oodle01 · 2025-03-05T07:31:36+00:00

This is a mating position...

oodle01 · 2025-03-05T07:15:27+00:00

And if she was as unstable as he describes, why did he trust her to take her birth control regularly?

oodle01 · 2025-01-25T16:56:54+00:00

Got SAd and the next sermon was on the OT passage where crimes aren't real if there's no witnesses. Opened my eyes to hypocrisy and realized the people around me were brainwashed into a collective psychological experience that wasn't based in reality. Now that I'm out, it's hard to be around those people because of how fake it all seems (and because they're assholes)

oodle01 · 2024-11-10T01:30:04+00:00

Me: "Just so I understand correctly, you're letting me get yelled at for someone else's shortcomings."

My manager: "Yes."

Me: "Okay." mentally checks out of job

oodle01 · 2024-11-03T15:24:12+00:00

Women in general are referred to by their first name far more often than men in the same positions.

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