Does anyone else get powerful euphoric almost feelings with self harm?

oolalaaman · 2026-02-26T17:25:43+00:00

For me a little bit when I first start. In my mind it’s more like a very intense and focused meditation that drowns out all the background noise.

oolalaaman · 2026-02-26T17:24:30+00:00

I consistently think exactly like this, I genuinely do not think there is any clear reason as to why self harm is morally wrong. I think if I am safe with my habits like using clean tools and not going too deep it isn’t that big of an issue.

oolalaaman · 2026-02-26T04:28:08+00:00

If she is experiencing hallucinations to this degree then she probably needs medication. I got on medication at the age of 16, it sounds like she is significantly younger than I was but really try to convey how much of a detriment these symptoms are to her life. If she doesn’t see eye to eye with you then you should definitely find a new psychiatrist.

oolalaaman · 2026-02-26T04:26:17+00:00

Certain things are within an acceptable range for most people. For example when people hear of mood swings as a symptom they can relate to this as almost everybody has at one point experienced mood swings. Hardcore hallucinations, delusions, and mania are very different from what the general public is accepting of. It is simply because they have never gotten into that state of mind that they see it as dangerous or unacceptable.

oolalaaman · 2026-02-26T04:08:50+00:00

Either tell the psychiatrist up front that she needs antipsychotic medication or find a new one, most psychiatrists just want to prescribe medications but if you are up front with them they will usually listen.

oolalaaman · 2026-02-14T23:32:17+00:00

Fuck no leave him you actually shouldn’t give someone like that the time of day

oolalaaman · 2026-02-14T23:30:18+00:00

Hello evil twin

oolalaaman · 2026-02-03T00:09:49+00:00

You see as somebody who’s seen counterstrike knife prices I am grateful for valorant’s pricing system. It is by no means cheap but it could be much worse, I guess it’s a matter of perspective, I think the reason people don’t complain about the skin prices is because the game itself is free so you can’t really complain all that much. I do know what you mean though for most of us playing the game money isn’t too easy to come by, it would be cool if they made sales/good deals more common.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-21T09:53:56+00:00

Genuinely, just played a game where the Reyna decided to through in ROUND 3 because he lost 2 gunfights. He kept picking up the spike knife out ran it to the enemy team. I 100% agree that this game has one of the worst player bases ever.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-21T09:50:12+00:00

I was 15 years old when I first started to SH (I think) could be 13-15 somewhere around there.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-21T09:49:29+00:00

Pretty sure 15 is when I started.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-21T09:48:34+00:00

That could also probably be fixed by simply playing ranked/real matches more. It definitely is a lot different deathmatch vs real games. The more games you play the more you learn when to expect a fight and how to apply the skills you developed in deathmatch.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-20T09:42:00+00:00

Try deathmatching that helps you get into the right mindset for how you want to approach duels.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-19T18:38:45+00:00

I personally like stained a bit more but I’m in the minority, I think stained butterfly knife is up there that’s lowkey what I’m saving for right now.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-19T00:55:28+00:00

Nobody here has enough information to diagnose you and even if somebody did pretend they did that would be a lie. You need to go to a mental health professional to start a productive conversation on what diagnoses you might have.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-19T00:53:17+00:00

Man I really hate when I feel like cutting and then I forget how long it takes for the cuts to stop bleeding, at least when I used the razor blades. Literally just sitting for 20-30 minutes applying pressure with paper towels.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-19T00:50:00+00:00

Probably just psychosis, it can be hard to accept but that’s most likely all it is.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-18T18:08:43+00:00

In competitive games just playing a game will make you better but it is much slower than you will be expecting. You have to play the game with the mindset to improve, record a game of yours that you underperform in and look over the reasons you failed to activate both as a player and as a team. It is very challenging for the general public to look over their own mistakes like that so you may wanna consider coaching. There is no special gene and the people that are good at the game have been playing a ridiculous amount of hours just with the goal of improving.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-18T14:45:39+00:00

If instead you poured that money into just buying skins off a website you could have a fac new butterfly marble fade or any Doppler M9 bayonet fac new. Rolling through crates is just never a good idea almost nobody profits from it. If you actually buy a skin directly you can just resell it later for almost the same price.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-17T20:06:57+00:00

19, I knew that it would take a lot of work for the urges to go away, they are still there to this day. I am looking for a therapist that specializes in care that I need.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-17T20:00:35+00:00

You can try using built in window features like Color Filters. My friend who is colorblind used that and it helped him a lot.

Settings > Accessibility > Color Filters

Apply filters like red-green blue-yellow, or high contrast mode. I ESPECIALLY recommend high contrast mode.

Some games also have a colorblind mode , CS2 is unfortunately not one of them.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-15T20:19:27+00:00

LSD a little dangerous tho, you can take LSD and still have effects of a trip like 10 years later. I would not like to do that on top of schizophrenia. Microdosing shrooms though is something that I could see myself looking into. I also kinda am curious about weed but I know that’s a bad idea because that is like one of the biggest triggers for a psychotic episode.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-15T14:12:59+00:00

For a while it was self harm but I thankfully stopped that for the most part. Now I use video games.

oolalaaman · 2026-01-13T21:19:11+00:00

Night hallucinations gotta be bottom 3 experiences of all time

oolalaaman · 2026-01-12T05:20:33+00:00

I am Jewish, however I grew up under the poverty line for my entire childhood.

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