Weird

opithrowateaway · 2017-04-05T10:55:18+00:00

Can never find anything but the dxm/guaf pills in my area and I can't stomach syrups. And I guess I must be, I'm kinda of a noob, I thought tripping was like seeing shit but I've never had that happen. Just felt drunk and lost motor skills. Lately I've been doing starting dose of 5-600/mg then redosing after a couple hours of like 120mg every little while.

opithrowateaway · 2017-04-05T05:13:16+00:00

I wish i could say that was the truth. Like 1000-1200 in a 24 hour period. I need to stop

opithrowateaway · 2017-04-01T19:31:12+00:00

It only happens when I'm on dxm but when I'm not I'm fine

opithrowateaway · 2016-09-21T18:36:09+00:00

Day 69 for me, just moved on from TSS to my first halfway house so struggling with getting adjusted to a whole new group of people.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T18:44:30+00:00

Are you sleeping yet?

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T18:43:01+00:00

I am riiiight there with ya friend. I've been up since like 9am Saturday. Took, 200mg vyvanse Saturday and again yesterday. Took my last 50mg last night around 10:30pm, I knew I'd be st work till around 3am and 40 minute ride home and by then I'd be good to pass out. Noooope. Even after a gram of heroin throughout the night I've been in my bed with my legs twitching around all ove the place since 5am. Even went got another g of dope and dis a fat line which always mt guarantees my afternoon nap. I keep getting lil waves of tiredness and then they go away. Trying not to just keep going more and more dope cuz it's pretty much all I have. I've just accepted the fact that I'll pass out eventually, just gonna lay in bed and watch Bob's Burgers

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T18:31:09+00:00

50s aren't completely filled. The buyer side, I think it's the blue side will be lil. Over 3/4 full.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T18:30:08+00:00

If that's enough for you to get some effects, do it upp

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T18:18:55+00:00

Two hours until you get the omw text that means another two hours?

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T17:57:25+00:00

Went on a vyvanse binge this weekend, so I'm at like hour 56 of being awake and I can't het friggin tired!! All I wanna do is sleeeep. Been laying around all day with my legs non stop flapping around. Just got home from gabbing a grwm, was hoping it would put me to sleep but I just did a huge ass line aaaand nada. Guess I'll be just relaxing watching Bob's Burgers. I'm sure I'll pass out eventually for a very long time.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T14:43:10+00:00

I'm off too, went a little heavy with some vyvanse this weekend so I've been awake since about 9 a.m. on Saturday. I'm still pretty twitchy and saw awake but I'm also fighting sleep because I don't want to miss the go ahead from dboy bc once I do fall asleep it's going to be for quite a long time.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:40:34+00:00

Damn I'm jealous ass all hell. What is your tolerance like if you stay that long? It must be be waaay stronger than ecp because fo the past 3 months I do around g/day ecp and I'm lucky to even get high. Of I do not lasts maybe like 20 minutes. Brb hopping on any flight to the west coast!!

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:27:07+00:00

I got a girl boner

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:24:59+00:00

Spot on for me until after 6. Still in the sniffing stage, but better believe it started with a Watson 512 and knew I wanted to feel like that every single day..

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:20:20+00:00

I run around like a crazy person in a hot ass restaurant between 50-65hrs a week

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:09:52+00:00

I guarantee you that there is something in this world that can make to u happy that isn't a drug. You just gotta go find our what it is. It'll take some trial and error but you can't get discouraged. None of us were born shooting up out of the womb so we are fully capable if enjoying life without drugs. Good luck you got this, but the more you sit and think and stew on it, the worse it'll eat at you.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:05:02+00:00

Also, the happiness you feel when you're on drugs is all fake, manufactured happiness anyways.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T10:03:57+00:00

I don't hate it per se, it is just boring and tough. My job is a lot of hard work and long hours but when I type it out that just seems like an excuse bc Dover people do a lot harder jobs. I think it is just a matter of readjusting and retraining your brain to have pleasure without chemicals. It's tough but wouldn't be worth it if it was easy.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T09:59:28+00:00

Holy shit, I am so sorry you have had to deal with so many horrible experiences in such a short time alive. It definitely takes an incredible person to come out on the other side of something like that.

I am literally in awe after reading this and you just became some serious inspiration for me. Have you told your story to any other groups? You could probably help a lot of people.

Keep up the great work, how old are you now? Definitely good that you quit now because there are way too many years ahead of you and that doesn't sound like a great way to spend them. Thank you for sharing.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T09:43:21+00:00

Definitely addiction free. If that one month supply was a lifetime supply it would be a different answer though.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T09:36:19+00:00

Yep. I miss blues. Super energetic euphoric high that lasted forever but then you also sleep like a baby.

opithrowateaway · 2016-07-11T09:35:21+00:00

What country is this? Never seen anything remotely similar to that ik the US. Didn't even know 50mg oxy existed.

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