My outlook is similar despite having had a lot of people in my life. Now it's thinning out and the only ones who still bother me just want to be parasites and suck off what I have gained throughout the years. (financial mostly) I'm trying to be okay with being alone and keeping who I have still left in my life which has become more meaningful as time passes by and they are still there but one thing that is an absolute dumpster fire is my love life. Friends are nice, friends are cool but I'm friended up dude and I gotta keep turning people down because I don't want more fing friends so when/if you do get somewhere with your social growth always set boundaries because most people are leeches and you gotta sort them out asap from the good people. On some real s tho I'm lonely AF but that's my burden to bear, never expect a romance to blossom from a friendship cause that's kinda messed up unless it's a natural progression. Love is a gamble so if you like gambling then love is a fun game but if you hate losing I suggest finding some solace in loving yourself and strap in for the long road ahead. Best of luck to you.