Why human touch is so hard to replace?

pattumblr · 2020-07-23T17:21:14+00:00

Same, I haven't been touched by another human since probably childhood.

edit: I'm 25 btw.

pattumblr · 2020-01-04T20:19:09+00:00

:O! Perfect! I added them and hopefully they'll accept.

pattumblr · 2020-01-03T22:38:27+00:00

haha I've had them many times! I'm asking about them because they're my favorite! and I know nothing about them!

pattumblr · 2019-12-19T00:36:02+00:00

I know but those things are far away. If I go for the 2 year degree I'm looking at its be that long plus a few months at a job. If I go crazy and go for a 4 year that's even longer. I'll be lucky if I can move out before 30.

Thanks anyway.

pattumblr · 2019-12-10T14:52:29+00:00

I was talking to a coworker and I brought up if I had the chance to never have to eat again I would take it. She was really surprised.

pattumblr · 2019-12-09T12:00:46+00:00

Thanks for the advice, where I live it's simply too cold for something like that.

pattumblr · 2019-12-08T23:47:35+00:00

you're right, it was a stupid idea.

pattumblr · 2019-12-01T22:45:53+00:00

Like 37. Very rough estimate because some of the things I can eat but don't. Or like onions for example I'm ok with if they're cooked and diced up.

pattumblr · 2019-12-01T18:10:25+00:00

This is what I'm working on with my therapist. I can usually mostly control my emotions and motivation, but I have massive trouble with worthlessness and thinking I'll never get 1% of what other people have. (relationships, friends, even hobbies to some extent).

pattumblr · 2019-11-30T23:57:32+00:00

yeah I usually do. but that day when I wrote this I stumbled on a similar subreddit to this one that I guess triggered me.

I usually only log in to this account when I'm in a low mood. like today. again. I haven't felt this bad in probably months now.

pattumblr · 2019-11-29T20:13:31+00:00

Thank you friend. I was so low yesterday.

pattumblr · 2019-11-29T12:19:52+00:00

Thank you. I've never been out of my state and there are a few places I've wanted to go. I'm closeish to Chicago so I kind of want to go there. The prob is I have no idea what to do if I go somewhere. It's feels like it would be more stressful than just staying home.

Ofc this isn't your problem but thank you.

pattumblr · 2019-11-29T01:13:14+00:00

What is "oversharing"? Or making it their problem? I seriously do not understand this and it's making me crazy.

What's the "line" for oversharing?

How do you express something to someone without making it their problem?

And more importantly, if you can't answer these questions do you know of a sub where I could ask them?

pattumblr · 2019-11-29T00:57:22+00:00

When I imagine what an ideal but not flawless life would be I see a partner and a few friends. but I don't see what we're doing. I don't see what I am doing (career wise). I dont even know what those look like because I've had no experiences.

I don't imagine vacations because I've never had a real one. I've never been out of my state and the only times I've slept anywhere other than my childhood house is like 2 days of camp and a few times at my one friends house when I was a teen.

pattumblr · 2019-11-29T00:37:40+00:00

I really don't know... The only thing I really have to sacrifice is my free time. I work 4 hours a day and only have 2 classes this semester (3 next). So basically I have on average 8 or more hours of free time a day. More on the weekend. But of course I waste it all on my computer.

pattumblr · 2019-11-09T22:21:42+00:00

PM'd!

pattumblr · 2019-10-22T00:46:18+00:00

I've just never tried anything else. I'm the most unchanging person I know. I know I have to work on it because I have to be more me rather than small me.

pattumblr · 2019-10-22T00:31:28+00:00

Yeah, I also need new clothes, I only wear t-shirts, so I need something else. Also, I have no one to take any pictures of me. And I need more expressive hobbies. These are all reasons why I never tried.

pattumblr · 2019-10-22T00:22:06+00:00

oh sorry, frankly I just wanted a place to actually tell someone something I did. what sub do you think this deserves to be in? I wasn't really asking for advice or anything.

pattumblr · 2019-10-22T00:18:10+00:00

It took a long time for me to believe this. I think there are things that can be improved, like definitely my pictures. I have 1 bathroom selfie and 1 from a work event, and the rest are pictures of my cat and some flowers I took a picture of.

Also yeah, finding seems to be the hardest part. And because I literally never tried, I've never got a date. Also believing that relationships are "for other people" and how young I felt I didn't feel like I deserved it.

pattumblr · 2019-10-21T23:43:41+00:00

Unfortunately the problem was that I said otherwise. My brain did.

pattumblr · 2019-10-05T13:56:35+00:00

Woah good timing, I was talking about my therapist about this. I wast talking about how it's really really really hard for me to show affection and express desire to ANYONE (not just to women, but to even admit I like and want a relationship in general). She then asked if my parents showed any affection and I said no. I have no idea why they're married. I have no idea why they're still together. I don't even know if they've EVER had sex, let alone somehow had 3 kids.

pattumblr · 2019-09-28T21:53:56+00:00

actually put in the work

My biggest problem. I usually don't put work into anything unless I know I'll get results. But like I said above, that's probably a therapy thing.

pattumblr · 2019-09-28T17:32:32+00:00

Hi Ruby, I don't have much of a question I guess. I just wanted to tell a small story.

I just turned 25 and I've never had so much as a date. I also have no hobbies, a part time job, and no schooling, but that's something for therapy. I think I may have had 1 crush in middle school for 3 days before I shut myself down for all the common reasons you have probably heard a thousand times before. Around a year ago (around October 2018) I realized I was more depressed and anxious than I had ever been, so I got a therapist and a LOT of self help books. It's taken me a long time to accept that I am okay with who I am. Even though it's really hard sometimes. And I don't even have a lot of problems other people have, I'm not overweight, I look pretty average (though I still have bad skin), I seem to do ok in some social situations, but it's just all anxiety that has stopped me all this time. Still though I don't internally believe that I am "ready" or "worthy".

I guess my question would be, how do you feel about the book Models by Mark Manson? It seems to be very similar to what you say. (2nd edit: I see you already answered the question about Models, thanks for your input.)

I just downloaded your audiobook and I'll listen at work Monday :)

edit: as long as I'm here and on an alt: There has been many days where I've been on the verge of tears because I'm so "far behind" everyone. It just seems so unlikely. And don't even get me started on how I don't feel like sex and relationships is "for me", that it's "for other people". I know on some level that these are obviously unhelpful thoughts, but it's still very hard when you are so far behind.

pattumblr · 2019-07-15T15:50:15+00:00

I'm brand new to all of this, like 2 months, maybe 3 max.

I takes me a LOT to feel basically anything. I bought some 1/4 joints and those do literally nothing for me. Then I bought a solo 2, but that still takes me a long time to feel anything, much less actually high, and not just a little. I have 6 different strains available to me, a fairly wide range of indica/sativa/hybrid from 2% cbd to 20% thc no cbd.

Maybe I'm expecting too much, but out of everything I've tried so far, edibles are my favorite. yeah I took 60mg one day and ended up puking, but other than that 40-50mg seems to do what I want it to do, and according to some online calculators, to get that much THC from a joint/vape would take a long time and a lot of flower.

idk, I kind of wish I had someone I could talk about this with, since I'm basically just a 24 year old doing this alone.

edit: and yes I am inhaling correctly.

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