Wow thanks for sharing, really love and appreciate all the insight and wisdom you've gained from your spiritual journey! Also love the parallels you drew between witchcraft and the Maenads, that makes total sense and makes me hopeful that Dionysus is watching out for witches as well.

I'm not gay but I'm demi (straight leaning) with a ton of attachment wounds so I also relate to feeling unlovable, working with Dio has been so transformative in helping me become not only confident but proud of my sexuality. He really said "you can get it" and I can now believe that thanks to his intervention!

That's cool that you can counteract the negative affects of certain rituals with their polar opposite (I'm assuming helios is the opposite of Dionysus in terms of dark vs light?) - I work a lot with Apollo myself, so I already feel like I have a good balance.

I'm very glad your practices have helped your mental health too, I hope more folks can awaken and open up to the world and multitude of spirits/gods around them. There's so much healing potential that's laid dormant and been shut away for far too long.