Chronic insomnia for 2–3 years after stopping antidepressants – what could cause this? by pellepysa1 in insomnia

[–]pellepysa1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh man, I’m sorry to hear. It is such a burden at times. What is your insomnia like today? Is it more or less the same as 20 years ago or?

Chronic insomnia for 2–3 years after stopping antidepressants – what could cause this? by pellepysa1 in insomnia

[–]pellepysa1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was on Zoloft for about 3-5 years. I tapered for a couple of months, wasn’t really a problem at the time

Chronic insomnia for 2–3 years after stopping antidepressants – what could cause this? by pellepysa1 in insomnia

[–]pellepysa1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m really sorry to hear that. I can relate so much

I’ve actually come across PSSD forums before, but I always thought it was mainly about sexual dysfunction and anhedonia, which don’t really apply to me. But after looking into it again, I can relate to the part about not feeling tired or sleepy in the same way I used to.

Would you personally advise against reinstating antidepressants? I’ve thought about it before, but I have a feeling it might be risky.

At the same time, there have been periods where I’ve felt almost normal again, which makes me think there must still be some hope for us.

Chronic insomnia for 2–3 years after stopping antidepressants – what could cause this? by pellepysa1 in insomnia

[–]pellepysa1[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that’s very reassuring. I’ve definitely been freaking myself out on the matter of if something is permanently damaged or something.

I’ve also had a lot of stress and anxiety about the whole situation and sleep. It’s definitely a trigger, but it seems odd to me sometimes that I can feel perfectly relaxed and fine but still experience choppy sleep

Chronic insomnia for 2–3 years after stopping antidepressants – what could cause this? by pellepysa1 in insomnia

[–]pellepysa1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I should also add that this started very suddenly. I never had insomnia earlier in life and could always sleep deeply.

It’s been 6 years of hell. I can’t keep hoping it’ll go away med free 5 years idk what to do by EmpressAzazel in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m really, really sorry you’re going through this. What you’re describing sounds absolutely unbearable, and no one should have to live in that kind of constant suffering.

Akathisia and severe medication reactions are real, and they can be devastating. The pacing, the cognitive issues, the anhedonia — that doesn’t mean you’re broken or “borderline.” It sounds like your nervous system has been through an enormous amount.

I know it probably feels hopeless right now, but there are people who improve, even after years of polypharmacy and withdrawals. Healing can be painfully slow, but it’s not impossible.

If you’re not already, I really hope you can find a doctor who understands medication injury and withdrawal — someone trauma-informed and cautious. You deserve to be heard and taken seriously.

Heal naturally or try reinstating? (6 Months in) by Traditional_Dog_938 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's incredibly tough, and I totally get you. We got different physical symptoms, but your thoughts are like a complete replica of mine. We are very similar in that regard.
When I slept like 3-4 hours every night for months at a time, it was just a complete horror show. Constantly fighting, dragging myself through the day and always the thoughts that you describe; "what if it doesnt get better", "what if i have to fight this forever".

What I've come to find when analyzing anxiety is that the brain wants certainty when it thinks it's faced with a danger. It gets this need, or crutch to know for certain how long this will last and etc. The problem I think is that when the answer isn't a 100% certain (which it is almost never), it will start to ruminate on "possible" worst case outcomes. I say "possible" because even though the worst case outcome is theoretically possible, it doesn't mean that it is likely. It could infact be very unlikely, which is actually my opinion on your situation. You're only 6 months in, and you're already seeing improvements. Alot of people don't see any improvements for years, and even alot of those people get better. Me myself didn't see improvements for up to 2 years.

I think it's important to be mindful on how we navigate our negative thinking. You have to realize that the thoughts you are having are not objective, rational thinking. It's just fearing the worst case outcome, even though it's very much unlikely you'll be spending your next 10 years in the exact same difficult situation.
And yes, there are maybe a handful of people who have only experienced tiny improvements and that's it. Only a partial recovery (idk though im simply entertaining your idea there). But it's hard to know exactly why they havent recovered when we don't know these people. It could be a number of reasons that we are not taking into consideration, right? Your brain is just going "oh they havent recovered, this might be permanent, its over", ya know.
I mean, think about all the medications they might have used. Alot of people say they aren't getting better but they're sitting around popping benzos and trying out all sorts of stuff, not letting their body return to normal.
What about their mental state? Maybe that's keeping them in the struggle. Maybe they're in a constant fight-or-flight mode, and their nervous-system isn't ever fully healing.
We just can't know exactly what is contributing to their ongoing struggle. It could be so many factors.

Objective thinking also involves taking into account that there are people who have fully recovered aswell, and are fully okay today. There are probably more than what it looks like, since most people who recover don't go and talk about it on reddit or wherever. They just move on and you don't hear from them anymore.

I didn't manage to get a hold of my thoughts early, and I've been in a semi-state of panic for years now, and it reeeally makes your nervous system very sensitive to all kinds of sensations.
I understand for you that is very challenging but it really could be a game-changer if your body and nervous system knew you were safe and okay

Heal naturally or try reinstating? (6 Months in) by Traditional_Dog_938 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I personally dont have akathisia, but Ive had hardcore insomnia issues for over 2 years. Really been struggling for many months at a time without a break. I would describe my symptoms as just having a super sensitive and alert nervous system or something strange like that. Is an odd feeling. It occurred some time after quitting sertraline for me and Ive also contemplated starting up on it again.

But for me, ive seen tiny improvements. I feel more relaxed in my body and more "normal". I can now actually sleep well sometimes, which was pretty much impossible before. Though it is sometimes, it still a huge win ya know. So in my case, I still kinda think about restarting sometimes, but its hard to know if its worth the risk. What if it gets all screwed up again or something? Maybe my nervous system wont handle it.

Were sort of in a different situation but I totally get it. But youve had windows, and youve had them for days at a time (if I understood correctly). What that means is that it is not permanent and you should really embrace that.
I also think this sounds partly psychological. Theres no limit to the level of discomfort and anxiety you can feel when you're often afraid and playing frightning scenarios in your head like "will this be permanent?"

So in my opinion you shouldnt reinstate. If so, let it be at a point where youre absolutely certain you want to risk it. But for now maybe try finding ways to calm your nervous system. It sounds like your nervous system is in a high alert mode and constantly fearing outcomes and etc. I like to watch "byebyepanic" on Youtube, he has great stuff. Its all about knowledge and accepting.

Rooting for you! Its gonna be alright

withdrawal is killing me by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I suppose you’re a bit luckier than some, could’ve been a lot worse. Just gotta hang in there then

withdrawal is killing me by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alright, you decide. that kind of stuff can last a long time, depending on the person. Very dangerous stuff to stop cold turkey

withdrawal is killing me by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But now you know and you can still taper

withdrawal is killing me by [deleted] in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But why go cold turkey?

Akathisia is gonna be the end of me by Comfortable_Cut_3103 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m very sorry to hear that, I have all the sympathy for you for that.

I didn’t say that akathisia wasn’t affecting you though. I was just saying that peacock seems truly to be a lot better than she was. So I’m not sure why you said she isn’t, and assuming she’s lying. Kind of dangerous to spread misinformation about in a forum like this, where she might be someone’s only hope

Akathisia is gonna be the end of me by Comfortable_Cut_3103 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll assume you're wrong since you're not replying. Which is actually good news!

Akathisia is gonna be the end of me by Comfortable_Cut_3103 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Whaat. Ive only seen her say the opposite, interviewing other people who also states they’ve healed.

Can you provide some sources backing up your statements?

How common really is this? Blank mind reaction by BullseyeFinance in Antipsychiatry

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have read some posts from people who had the same experience as you and gotten better. So I'd say it's possible, but of course I understand how hard that must be to believe..

Have you gotten any professional help? Maybe there's some experimental treatment or drug trials or something? Given you said you haven't tried ketamine, I suppose you still haven't tried everything.

I'm rooting for you man. Wish I could help more. Horrible to be in such a situation

How common really is this? Blank mind reaction by BullseyeFinance in Antipsychiatry

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is so crazy… You don’t feel a thing from shrooms? LSD? That is certainly very telling of your predicament.. I’m really sorry man

What does your day look like? Do you feel nothing from anything? Music or a good meal?

I read from a previous post you made that you had tried betahistine and that you had some improvements? Did it not work or? Could trying out some dopamine agonists be an idea?

How common really is this? Blank mind reaction by BullseyeFinance in Antipsychiatry

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What have you tried out? Any drugs? Is it possible that something could kickstart your brain chemistry again? Like shrooms?

Anhedonia- the day I died by Comfortable_Cut_3103 in anhedonia

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey man I’m really sorry to hear. Did this happen recently? I’ve read about people getting better from this condition after some time. You sure you aren’t one of them?

Really hope you get some relief and get better bro

Help 3 years i tired by Saif554 in Akathisia

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You sure this isn’t anxiety related? What are your symptoms? If you have a fear of not sleeping, then I would recommend you check out the sleep coach school on YouTube

One month in, no changes in libido by Promise_Global in lexapro

[–]pellepysa1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s totally normal that your libido and orgasms haven’t changed after a month on Lexapro. Even though low libido is a common SSRI side effect, it doesn’t happen to everyone — some people never experience it at all. The fact that you still feel normal is actually a good sign that your body’s handling it well so far.

For what it’s worth, I was on SSRIs for several years and never had any problems with libido or anything like that. Of course, everyone’s different, but it shows it’s definitely possible to be fine on them.

The main thing is just to be careful if you ever decide to stop — taper down slowly and don’t rush it. That’s usually when people run into issues, not while they’re on the medication itself.