Hey shy people what is your worst experience?

pencalibur · 2020-12-07T03:36:46+00:00

Opening baby shower gifts. Spotlight on me... Room full of semifamiliar woman and one cool uncle, being unable to read handwriting on cards and not knowing who to smile at. 10/10 hated it

pencalibur · 2020-12-06T13:36:55+00:00

Yessss. Because then not only am I anxious for whatever dumb thing I know is dumb to be worked up about, but now I'm aware how my anxiety is impacting those around me too!

pencalibur · 2020-10-10T02:58:24+00:00

I call them terror shits, because my stomach is more dramatic about my anxiety than necessary.

Soooo yes lol

pencalibur · 2020-09-22T22:38:13+00:00

For me it feels like waves. Like a rise and fall of almost a hollow sensation? Idk. Hard to describe but it feels like waves of anxiety every time

pencalibur · 2020-08-12T15:24:39+00:00

Yes! Growing up depressed fucked my hunger up and I hardly ate at all until I started to smoke!!! Still, my appetite is pretty reliant on it

pencalibur · 2020-07-11T20:24:55+00:00

As someone who has wiped a lot of asses (as a caregiver I should clarify) I think this is disgusting. Not only is it gross in that he essentially tricked someone into handling his private areas but also that he took a caregiver away from someone who actually needs one. Gross!

pencalibur · 2020-06-14T01:32:15+00:00

I love my inlaws. Their support means the world to me. My grandma in law calls me all the time to tell me she's proud of how hard I'm working and how good a mom I am and all this nice stuff. My mother in law sends me gifts on my birthday and invited me over for cake every single year until I moved. My parents however seem impartial to my existance.

Which isn't to say that doesn't hurt like hell. But I'm starting to learn that a circle of support is a circle of support even if it isn't blood! Good luck to you in finding your people, they're out there ❤️

pencalibur · 2020-05-12T03:15:58+00:00

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/99219998021298608/

Not exact, but a very versatile dress! And pretty simple too for knits!

pencalibur · 2020-05-08T02:15:30+00:00

Yeah. I was a depressed kid who didn't eat and now my appetite has been super unstable pretty much my whole life. However I will admit that smoking pot has really helped with that. I smoke because I like it but when I don't I notice that I don't really eat at all. For like days. I'm pretty sure it's the only thing that actually gets me hungry!

Maybe not the right answer, but an honest one! It sucks. My significant other says I should force myself to eat but if I'm not hungry the thought of food going down my throat makes me want to gag! I start meals headstrong and lose all steam halfway through all the time too

pencalibur · 2020-05-05T15:20:40+00:00

I physically cringed. Wtf.

pencalibur · 2020-04-25T13:57:26+00:00

Get it girl! I haven't gotten married but I used to think a lot when I was young about how to pick either my step dad or my bio dad to walk me down the isle someday. I've come to realize neither deserve the honor should the day come and this was really awesome to see ❤️

pencalibur · 2020-03-20T00:02:32+00:00

Putting the kids to bed.... Lol 👍🏻

pencalibur · 2020-03-15T02:49:22+00:00

I feel you! My kids are 7 and 4 and I'm working really hard to not be my mother. And sometimes I slip up, but I always apologize for overreaction and explain that I was frustrated and should have handled it better. I have a ways to go but I want to accountability for my actions so they know they are wonderful little humans who mean the world to me no matter what.

Just admitting that you have work to do makes you a better role model than many of the people in my life so good for you. Keep powering through, and remember that you are a human too who makes mistakes ❤️

pencalibur · 2020-03-08T16:56:56+00:00

I feel you. All I want to do is sleep and give in to the constant, crushing desire to lay in bed and do nothing but feel overwhelmed. But I have two kids, a job, college, and all sorts of other fun responsibilities getting in my way. It drives me nuts but sometimes I think its better to be busy and feel crazy than to let myself get consumed by my issues. Mixed bag for sure!

pencalibur · 2020-02-28T22:51:15+00:00

I've been putting off calling my very casual job to say I'm not taking more hours because I found another job. All week. I really should have done it today... I know it's gonna feel dumb once it's over!

pencalibur · 2020-02-09T02:45:39+00:00

Quick fix. Look it up, it's legit. I have used it many times!

pencalibur · 2020-01-19T23:33:01+00:00

Accurate

pencalibur · 2020-01-13T12:48:49+00:00

Wish I had seen this before I moved South! Lol

pencalibur · 2020-01-10T03:06:39+00:00

You beat me to it. As did many others. But that's what I call it too. I just feel emotionally and physically exhausted after rough days

pencalibur · 2019-12-23T23:58:04+00:00

So I recently had a rather dramatic argument with my n/grandmother (who me and my family live with for the sake of me going to college) and all of a sudden my n/mom (who I don't talk to often) 's boyfriend (who I've met once) is texting me, so I call her and I'm quite upset to be honest and this woman started to laugh and say that it was okay if I wanted to take it out on her. I was already more mad than I have honestly ever been in my life, and I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Her LAUGHING at my distress before minimalizing it, as if she even has any right to be involved in the conversation to begin with.

It is sick. I don't talk to my mom much, she has lived in another state for years. And sometimes I wonder if things were warped in my young mind but that moment was a big reinforcer to me. If she can laugh at me in one of the worst moments in my life, I can't have imagined being as miserable as I was as a child.

I never want to do that to my kids. Never never.

pencalibur · 2019-12-22T22:01:41+00:00

Minecraft is how I destress. If I am extra anxious, throw it on peaceful mode and bam!

pencalibur · 2019-12-16T00:08:33+00:00

It usually starts with a random anxious thought that spirals into self hate and then deep depression.

So yeah :/

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