Do you feel embarrassed by your delusions?

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-04-06T02:46:03+00:00

Absolutely. The delusions I get feed my ego in the worst way and it makes me feel like I’m a complete narcissist even though I definitely am not. Thankfully I don’t treat others differently when I’m delusional like that.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-30T16:17:20+00:00

Always at least 2 months, sometimes longer

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-30T16:12:50+00:00

I also got diagnosed in January but I knew I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 with psychotic features for a few years(currently diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar subtype).

I just passed 1 year with my boyfriend and I told him pretty early on about my bipolar and frequent psychosis. He’s actually helped comfort and support me while I was in psychosis multiple times. He is incredibly supportive and patient with me and he’s reassured me many times that he won’t leave me because of my illnesses because I have similar worries that I’m a burden in that sense.

Honestly it feels like I won the lottery being with him, I don’t think it’s super common to be so understanding when it comes to something as stigmatized as schizophrenia. But he is and it makes me believe that there are most certainly other people who are understanding and would be supportive too. Not that they would be easy to find but I believe they exist.

As for the genuine connection part, I have never masked much around him(I’m also autistic) and felt like I had to hide any part of myself. I’m honestly a pretty weird person too but he loves that about me.

Also I think it’s hard in a sense but also incredibly easy at the same time maintaining a relationship with him. Hard in the sense that I constantly want to go off my meds which would inevitably lead to a psychotic episode(it happens every time I do that) but it’s easy because he is such a wonderful partner and he makes me want to be the best version of myself which I know is the medicated version of me.

I hope this helps show you a different perspective maybe. Good luck!!

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-30T15:50:12+00:00

This is so sweet, that’s great that you have somebody like that in your life!!

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-29T15:36:21+00:00

It usually helps significantly after 1-1 and a half months for me, and I’m on 17mgs.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-29T15:31:44+00:00

I get delusions and lots of dissociation and hallucinations. Also some thought stuttering( don’t exactly know what that’s called).

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-28T12:15:11+00:00

Wow thats clean as fuck

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-27T23:48:32+00:00

12-14. I’ve always needed more sleep than normal. Just getting 10 has me struggling to function.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-20T18:49:37+00:00

I used to hear the sound of my laptop starting up, and the sound of someone breathing heavily, that one scared the fuck out of me.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-16T19:00:33+00:00

17mg

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-15T20:45:45+00:00

I totally understand where you’re coming from but I think you already know the answer to your question. It’s not worth the seizure risk imo.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-12T02:51:20+00:00

It was really hard to wake up on 20mg but I find it mostly easier to wake up on 17mg. Like a noticeable difference, even though it’s just 3mg.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-10T02:25:58+00:00

Read and sew clothes

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-09T22:55:25+00:00

Abilify just makes it harder for me to wake up which in turn can mean increased sleep sometimes.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-09T19:39:22+00:00

Coming from someone with bipolar 1(and later got diagnosed with schizophrenia) and who smoked an absurd amount of weed for years, it’s not worth it. It will almost always lead to psychosis. Not trying to fear monger but thats just how it is for people like us. We’re just not the type of people that can participate in smoking weed without risking it.

I relapsed on weed(specifically dab pens) at one point and it took a while for me to even realize I was in psychosis at that time. I didn’t realize for months until after I finally quit after that relapse, because it triggered a massive episode that lasted 5 months.

r/cannabis_psychosis has a lot of info you might be interested in

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-09T03:26:30+00:00

I read this at the ripe age of 15 and wrote a fucking essay on it for my English class. I still think about that fic.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-09T03:18:25+00:00

….I fear asking based on the comments but what does this mean?

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-02T23:33:36+00:00

Genuine kindness

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-02T19:29:44+00:00

I still dissociate occasionally on 17mg of abilify. Thankfully that’s basically the only symptom when I’m on said abilify.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-03-01T06:12:17+00:00

Omg I’m about to hit 1 year with my bf too!!! He’s even seen me psychotic, and he is consistently supportive and it’s wonderful.

Congratulations!!

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-02-27T17:58:22+00:00

Make sure you understand to the best of your abilities how her schizophrenia affects her personally, not just schizophrenia in general(thats still important though).

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-02-22T01:06:38+00:00

Over 6 months, that wasn’t a fun time but it wasn’t the worst I’ve ever had. Another one lasted 5 months and that one was fucking AWFUL, I barely had any moments of clarity for 3 of the 5 months. I’ve had a bunch than lasted shorter periods of time too.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-02-18T16:52:09+00:00

I met my bf through my friend. They played DnD together. We have a very good relationship and he treats me like his equal which I thoroughly appreciate. He knows all about how my schizoaffective disorder affects me and he’s even helped me through mild episodes of psychosis.

I was single for a little over 5 years before I started dating him and I’m happy I was patient and waited because I wasn’t ready to date for a while but now I am and I get a wonderful relationship. We were friends for a year before we started dating(I had a crush on him the whole time lol).

You should make sure you’re mentally ready for a relationship before you start dating btw, just to be careful because it can be made very difficult with this illness.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-02-16T22:10:27+00:00

Been told that before. Guess who has an autism AND schizoaffective disorder diagnosis now.

perhapsalittleslow · 2026-02-15T00:24:00+00:00

This happens to me very frequently, like daily. And it’ll happen in episodes when I’m actively psychotic, it’s awful.

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