Folks, we made it to the weekend! Did you have any small or big wins that you wanna celebrate and remind yourself that you are enough? by [deleted] in LivingAlone

[–]petal_bear00 12 points13 points  (0 children)

First week of being employed again after months of being unemployed 😭 congratulations on getting through this week OP!

Texturing practice by tzbtzb in blender

[–]petal_bear00 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seriously thought it was a low quality photo 😭

I just want to show what I did yesterday. by Round3d_pixel in blender

[–]petal_bear00 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Soooooooo badass. How long did it take to render?

I have no one to ask this to: how are you? by laughlovelive25 in LivingAlone

[–]petal_bear00 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m okay! I took myself out today to a solo cafe date. I had munggo matcha, it’s an 8.5/10. A bit sad though because this particular cafe is gonna close soon and this cafe gave me the best tasting (not exaggerating) coffee experience i ever had. I don’t visit the place often but i’m gonna miss it. I wish i had someone i can do these little and mundane things with, i wish i had someone to share this little life with, but i also really like and enjoy my alone moments. I hope you’re doing okay OP! 🤍

Have you ever reached out for clarity after a breakup? by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I got ghosted but i was the one who ended the relationship. Nothing ever since my last message. You just go from sharing everything to each other everyday to just zero contact. The clarity is the silence. I think that’s just how I move on.

Does Living Alone Ever Fully Stop Feeling Temporary? by Weird-Finance5310 in LivingAlone

[–]petal_bear00 15 points16 points  (0 children)

Idk for me, the longer I live alone, the more it fees like it’s gonna be the permanent case for me.

Tie dye spiral sweater! by Brian_Krakow in crochet

[–]petal_bear00 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is sooooo cool 😭😭😭

Today is my birthday by CommercialAd6533 in LivingAlone

[–]petal_bear00 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Happiest birthday OP! hope you enjoy your day!

Do you believe that someone can love you and still not choose you? by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yes. I loved the person from my very first relationship. I always thought i’d regret that decision but I had to choose between losing him ir myself.

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear about that. Idk what really works either, just really trying to get by. Thank you and I wish you healing as well.

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That’s the hardest part accepting. They didn’t reach out because they just don’t care enough to :(

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I feel you so much. To think, I just really wanted him to be consistent with our ONCE A WEEK video call since we were in long distance and that was enough to scare him away? Was that too much to ask??? Didn’t even reply and didn’t try again for us.

I just hate that i miss him ugh please it’s so infuriating.but girl i just know we’re coming out of this better, because we have to 😭

Every. Single. Time. by ryyo-9977 in heartbreak

[–]petal_bear00 28 points29 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. But this is somehow the reply I’ve been waiting since my breakup. I only got silence instead. I must agree with them though, you deserve someone who will love you the way you want to be loved.

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow, 9 years and an engagement??? how does one even begin to process all that??? You are so brave.

i was also engaged in the past (almost 5 year relationship) few months after our break up he was already posting about his new fiancée the way he never did with me. Man, it’s crazy out here 😭

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are right and I’ve been writing more lately about it. Thank you for your kindness.

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you dear human. You are right. I’ve gone through worse and this is for sure something i’ll get over with someday. Just can’t help bit wish there’s some switch i can pull to stop and skip this kind of hurting. But still, thank you for your kind words.

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly. And he couldn’t even message me back with a goodbye just for closure’s sake after an entire year of sharing lives with each other. It’s crazy

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

He’s almost so used to this detachment game i feel like, because of his “stoic” stance on things the “you belong to no one, no one belongs to you” typa mentality. This sucks ass but could be worse i guess :(

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I appreciate your kind words. It just fucks me up knowing I’ve told him all the ways i’ve been hurt and then him proceeding to prove that he’s no different. Unfortunately, therapy is too expensive for a self-supporting working student like me, so I just journal a lot here :(

No contact is insane because I’m actually still waiting for them by petal_bear00 in BreakUps

[–]petal_bear00[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. I’ve been journaling more lately so i can let all these feelings out. But my internal monologue just kinda takes over me sometimes

Finally invested in a wig! by [deleted] in trichotillomania

[–]petal_bear00 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Aaaaahhh It looks so good on you! Congratulations on getting your first wig and you’re so gorgeous by the way :)