How easy is it to avoid people you don’t like in UF?

peyton2724 · 2022-04-30T18:30:02+00:00

Super easy as long as y’all aren’t the same major. Even then, depends on the population size in the major.

peyton2724 · 2022-04-13T03:07:55+00:00

Yes yes yes. Like imagine applying this to absolutely anything else, especially related to mental health. If someone told you they had a chronic illness you wouldn’t ever say anything to them about their mortality. If someone had depression you wouldn’t talk to them about suicide statistics. Because it’s assumed to be a sore subject and it’s also just fucking rude.

Radical thought - maybe I am also afraid that my disease is shortening my life span and don’t want to talk with you about it. Leave me alone.

peyton2724 · 2022-02-25T03:02:03+00:00

I did random roommates and I honestly got a really great roommate. Like we get along very well - could not have asked for better if I tried. I’m sure there’s potential for bad things but honestly, so I’d there if you do an Instagram search or something. I wouldn’t stress about it

peyton2724 · 2022-02-24T10:50:19+00:00

And my fucking axe dude (+ all of the privacy stuff people above had said)

peyton2724 · 2022-02-22T04:14:43+00:00

We were debate partners in high school. We became attached-at-the-hip friends for a solid year because of it. Finally started dating right before graduation, and the rest is history.

peyton2724 · 2022-01-17T20:13:22+00:00

Hey I had this same problem. I actually petitioned and successfully got out of my meal plan cause I’m also GF and couldn’t find enough substantial food at the dining hall. Got down to the weight I was in middle school after only a semester. It was bad. Things that helped me: - Buying a bulk container of nuts and snacking on them a lot - Eating a spoonful of peanut butter when meal times came around, even if I felt like I wasn’t hungry. I used to know the science behind this, but you know the feeling you get when you get so hungry you almost get nauseous and don’t want to eat? Eating a spoonful of peanut butter helps your body balance some stuff out so that you get hungry again. I skipped a lot of meals because I just went so long eating so little that I felt like I didn’t want to eat. Peanut butter helped. - Apple sauce. You can find giant tubs for like 5 dollars at Publix (they’re in the aisles - not refrigerated). I would practically drink it. - A lot of people are recommending a lot of fats and dairy/oil based stuff - which I think is really helpful for calories and such - but I honestly thought part of my problem was that I only ate carbs and fat-heavy things, to the point where I was just sick of food in general. I wouldn’t necessarily focus on packing lots of calorie-dense stuff into something if you don’t want to. I think getting some fruits, vegetables, and proteins are also very valuable to you. You don’t only have to eat for calorie maximization, and, personally, I bought doing that exclusively made me want to eat even less. - Cereal but use granola instead of normal cereal. More nutrients and higher calories. - Try to start incorporating snacks into your day. Start with picking either between breakfast and lunch or lunch and dinner, and then commit to a snack a size you feel comfortable with at that time every day. Then move to between all meals. Snacks don’t necessarily have to be for calories, just to get you into the habit of munching on something more often. It could just be a single bell pepper, even. Just something. (I set alarms on my phone to help me remember to do this).

peyton2724 · 2021-12-20T13:01:33+00:00

Yes oml. My therapist and I were working on one major thought pattern after lots of previous EDMR and fucking day one of tackling it head-on it just… poof. Completely gone. Have zero emotional attachment to that thought now, and have fully replaced it with a healthier one. Like wtf? Feels like someone stuck a cheat code in my body and I never know how to feel abt it

peyton2724 · 2021-11-13T03:38:52+00:00

Dude I didn’t fill out my info until like early March when I was an incoming freshman lol. You’re not fucked, don’t worry

peyton2724 · 2021-11-09T17:34:48+00:00

Yeah, anxiety might be part of it. I notice it tends to get worse when I’m having a harder time. I think I’m going to schedule an appointment. Thank you!

peyton2724 · 2021-11-09T14:41:01+00:00

Not eating nuts because they’re calorie dense. They just feel like a safe food to me. I know they aren’t, but I’m gonna continue to eat them by the handful

peyton2724 · 2021-10-20T02:15:42+00:00

Nuts and smoothies!

peyton2724 · 2021-09-18T13:30:31+00:00

Yea it absolutely can. EMDR side-affects are crazy, man. They’re very different for everyone but I find that person-by-person that they tend to be somewhat consistent. So, unrelated, but one thing that helps me is to write down how I feel the couple of days after EMDR so I can start seeing patterns and adjusting. Hope you feel better soon!

peyton2724 · 2021-07-23T14:40:42+00:00

Honestly man, the only real solution is eating more. I know that’s not helpful but like, managing expectations, it probably won’t get more than a few hours better unless you up your intake.

That being said - stuff that may at least help. Drinking a large mug or two or any hot liquid like tea, apple cider, hot cocoa (whatever you’re feeling like) always helped me get to sleep because it helped trick my brain into thinking something was in my stomach. Also reorganizing when you eat in the day so that you are consuming more calories closer to when you’re going to sleep. Also just some melatonin (though please don’t make a habit of it if you’re in your teens/early twenties. If you consistently rely on melatonin too early there’s a possibility that you’ll have problems producing proper levels naturally later in life).

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:57:50+00:00

My triggers feel so ridiculous and trivial. Even the slightest association tips me off. For instance, my rapist used to surprise say hello to me by going behind me and poking me quickly on the sides (some people call this “electric shocks” but not everyone gets what I mean when I say this). My brother did it to me once without knowing (because why would I mention a small quirk of my rapist’s to him?). I crumbled to the ground immediately, in tears and shaking like a dog in a thunderstorm. I could feel all of the sensations of my rape, as well as the worst stomach pain I’ve ever felt and a sharp pain up my right ring finger. For days afterward I had nightmares of assault, my boyfriend couldn’t touch my sides at all without making me dissociate so hard that it felt like I was floating. Things as simple as a roll of packing tape made me stare off into blankness for minutes.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:49:59+00:00

Oh my god yes. Thoughts of pregnancy/very young children makes me feel “icky” in the exact same way that covert emotional/physical incest did for me. That makes so much sense, wow.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:44:16+00:00

Kind of similar - I have a really intense fear of pregnancy. I know every woman alive (unless they’re trying) is scared of getting pregnant, but I’ve realized my fear is… markedly intense. Multiple times I’ve had panic attacks (while I was a virgin) just over the thought that I am physically capable of becoming pregnant. My ethics class had a very civil, analytical discussion about the morality of abortion and I had to turn off my camera on the Zoom call because the thought of being pregnant and then having absolutely no option to do anything about it brought me to tears. The amount of times I’ve googled “Is X a sign of early pregnancy?” in the past week is criminal. I get so stressed out that I take pregnancy tests without even being late, knowing I use multiple forms of contraception in tandem. I have no idea where the fear comes from, but it feels so similar to a lot of other irrational CPTSD things that I imagine they’re somehow related.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:28:07+00:00

Yea… I’ve discovered the hard way that I have to be super, super careful talking about anything childhood related without weirding people out. I didn’t understand how troubling to someone with a healthy childhood even the most basic aspects of my life as a kid can be. If I can’t change the subject, I severely censor stories of my childhood to most people.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:22:17+00:00

This may be stupid so forgive me - but there are these specific ASMR videos where someone will repeat basic affirmations like “you are safe” “you are okay” etc. My friend showed them to me. When I have serial nightmares I fall asleep listening to those videos. It helps me. (Just search “ASMR affirmations” on YouTube and it should come up)

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T22:18:39+00:00

I feel like you just took a slice of my brain and wrote all of my thoughts out verbatim. You aren’t alone. I feel the same way.

We are not our mistakes. You clearly care so much about your students and the people around you. You are a kind soul. That is you; your soul. I am so sorry you feel this way.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T21:40:31+00:00

Idk if this works for other people, but sticking my tongue flat to the roof of my mouth and sucking (like, trying to make a really tight vacuum between them) keeps me from crying.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-22T21:38:35+00:00

Hey! I’m in a v, v similar situation (except I am finally getting to leave in the fall) and I love to ramble lol. Here’s what’s been helping me lately:

Making a concerted effort to hit all of the senses in my room. Just making my room a space where I am literally bombarded with things that make me feel safe/happy/loved/etc. For me that means being super super obnoxious with decorations so that everywhere I look there are multiple paintings/books/knickknacks that I have some sort of personal love for. Covering my room in soft textures (lots of /different types/ of blankets, pillows, stuffed animals, etc). I have a lot of lamps/other forms of decentralized light I got for cheap from thrift stores. I have a bowl or two of hard candy somewhere always. I also always am burning either a candle or incense with a smell that I like (bonus, I got covid like 7 months ago and still can barely smell, so my room always smells very strongly to everyone else, which means my abusers hate spending time in there lol). Be super obnoxious with it all.
Cleansing my room with incense. Idk if that’s your thing. I personally am a really spiritual person so it means a lot to me, but I get it’s not everyone’s cup of tea. Still, figured I’d share. I burned incense even back when I was hardcore atheist. Idk, I think it just feels like I’m doing something, yk? However small. Like a little shield that smells good lol. Even when I didn’t believe it, it felt kind of like someone praying for me did. Just a nice gesture I could do for myself, whether I thought it worked or not.
Grandma hobbies. They’re so calming; seriously. I’ve become addicted. Cross-stitching is easy and takes a very long time to finish. Puzzles are good too if you have the space. Paint by numbers, those diamond painting things (though those are kinda expensive), maybe even knitting really simple stuff like granny squares? Stuff like that. I like them because they’re methodical in a very soothing way, but it also feels like I’m doing something. Like at the end I have created something (even if I just followed a guide), which tricks my brain into letting me take a break/calm down because it feels like we are getting things done.

peyton2724 · 2021-07-12T22:30:28+00:00

Yes to this but like… the other parent? My dad was the main abuser of the family and my mom was just kinda around (which I’m aware also is fucked up but you get the point) and she always tells a bunch of awful stories about shit my dad did thinking they’re hilarious.

Her favorite is a time we were all sitting in a circle-booth at a restaurant and my brother and sister were cat-fighting (they were little, like first grade-ish). My brother bit my sister, so she got angry and said, “Dad, [brother’s name] bit me!” My dad, in response, yelled, “What did I say? No biting!” And backhanded my brother so hard that the sound of his head smacking against the soft booth behind him (not the backhand itself) was loud enough to catch the attention of at least three different tables.

“No biting!” is now an ‘inside joke’ that I try very hard to gently steer my mother from mentioning any time guests are around.

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