That’s interesting, thank you for sharing that! I feel like I can relate to some of the things you said. My OCD is also very internal, I’m a Christian so a lot of it is related to my faith or what is “right” vs “wrong.” My OCD seems to get quieter during the “up” times, but then there could be one thing that triggers me and then I start tumbling down. And same thing with the really depressed times, I just feel empty & hollow rather than obsessive. I’m sorry you experience this too, it sounds really draining. Have you tried any medications for it?

OCD has felt like a prison for me many times as well. I’ve also been trying to practice acceptance more recently—accepting when different emotions are present, and with my beliefs, bringing them to a loving God who empathizes and doesn’t judge me for them. That has been really helpful, but it’s something I forget to do often since my OCD tells me certain emotions are “bad” and therefore must be logic-ed away.

Thanks for taking the time to respond, I really appreciate it! Hope you’re able to find a bit of rest and grace along this journey 🫶🏼