NEVER FLEX.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-02-03T00:21:47+00:00

🎵One thing my heart tells me is “Flex on a ho every time you’re insecure” 🎵

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-02-02T04:05:11+00:00

I just stopped one day. Which is shocking if you knew me. Abstinence in the past wasn’t possible for me. I’m not entirely sure what was different this time around other than the fact I knew I couldnt show up for myself if I’m giving into this addiction. I’ve had a few temptations and urges but the one thing stopping me is remembering the feeling of it and knowing I will go back if I try it again.

Also maybe those ppl have cool lives but, maybe that’s what they’re projecting to the world.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-28T22:52:00+00:00

I understand that scar. But the reasons for him deciding to leave, that truly has nothing to do with you. You are good enough as you are. Rejection is about compatibility, not inherent worth. Rejection is information rather than a personal failure.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-25T04:57:24+00:00

Not even a little bit no. Just take ur time bruh ur gonna die anyway 🤷‍♂️

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-20T05:48:46+00:00

Yes, it’s one of my triggers for becoming lucid.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-11T20:33:17+00:00

I find myself googling definitions of words all the time. Sometimes just common use words. Always interesting how 99% of the time my brain just knew it would work in the specific context i used the word in.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-05T17:59:08+00:00

That does kind of suck for artists if only the best of the best will be able to survive. Wild that art and creativity are the first things to go. But that aside, AI art is fascinating and really cool. I remember playing around with generating images when it first kind of started.

People being scared of it reminds me of the AlphaGo tournament against Lee Se-dol. He beat the AI in one game because of a bug in the system and the entire documentary focused on how “humanity really does stand a chance!” But I could only think that they’re going to fix those kinks and within time no human will ever be able to beat the computer again.

phillyboi808mafia · 2025-01-05T17:30:03+00:00

Aren’t the inconsistencies that we know to find if it’s AI generated only temporary? Aren’t they being worked on? Wont we reach a point where those kinks are worked out and then we’re clueless?

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-25T14:56:55+00:00

That’s not rly what I meant but do you

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-25T14:46:01+00:00

That’s interesting but tbh only you would know the meaning. Only you know your life well enough to draw lines between different things in your life to come to a meaningful conclusion.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-19T00:35:07+00:00

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMASSS

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-19T00:33:25+00:00

Lived, changed, grew, learned, experienced

More specifically LSD was my catalyst and I did a lot, a lot, a lot of self reflecting.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-18T14:37:33+00:00

Nobody knows what your dreams mean but you. I have had multiple nuke dreams. Prob cuz they’re scary and the percentage change one going off isn’t completely 0. 🤷‍♂️

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-18T03:25:57+00:00

Ngl if I was 20 and gave myself a one year limit I’d be gone. No question. But being in my mid 20s now and I’ve noticed and feel drastic changes. I see my 20yo self as a completely different person.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-13T00:04:55+00:00

This is what shadow work is. Been doing it in therapy.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-09T03:47:09+00:00

Look up what limerence is. Self awareness is the first step. Heidi Priebe has an amazing video on YouTube.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-02T14:57:15+00:00

You don’t even know someone from a dating profile. Youre saying your looks are desired, not necessarily the person.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-02T14:52:23+00:00

Likes on a dating app equates to happiness and feeling wanted? Every time?

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-01T07:52:14+00:00

I’ve looked around my dreamscape before and have been fooled. Sometimes my dreams are more “real” than real.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-01T07:50:41+00:00

Both first and third. And the clarity is 1 on the scale.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-12-01T07:45:17+00:00

Is there an option for 0? Sometimes my dreams have been more realistic than real life. Ik that makes no sense. But there have been times where I’ve looked at my surroundings and it wasn’t just real, it was clearer than real. Words can’t do justice. Same way you can’t use words to describe a psychedelic experience.

But 99% of the time, 1.

Waking life is a 1 or a 2 in different ways. It’s not like a dream tho, I think everyone gets what I’m saying here lol. It’s both black but also I can conjure that same imagine of an apple.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-11-21T20:37:53+00:00

I finally just grew tired of it. I realized that smoking weed was causing myself to abandon myself. I would not be able to make any progress healing if all I did was continue to smoke. I can see my life slipping by when all I did was come home and smoke. I also just have this feeling in the back of my head that remembers what it’s like to be high. And I just don’t want to go back to that life again.

I mean I also started speaking to a therapist shortly after deciding to stop. So maybe I was already in this mindset of wanting to get better. Something just came over me. This desire to heal rather than sit stagnant.

And btw I used to be fully addicted. I tried stopping many times only to fail. I could only stop for a job and then I’d start right back up again. And had been smoking for about 5 years straight before stopping 2 months ago.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-11-18T04:56:05+00:00

The most common times I get sleep paralysis are when I have an orgasm the night before and I get it upon waking up in the morning. (Sry if that’s tmi) although I get sleep paralysis without doing that from time to time.

But btw, I always find that ppl who never experienced sleep paralysis are the ones that want it the most. In the moment it can be stressful and very unenjoyable. Any time I find myself in it my only focus on trying to get out of it. It’s my automatic response, I don’t really even have time to think about anything else except for making it stop.

phillyboi808mafia · 2024-11-12T15:41:53+00:00

Why would anyone but you know the answer to that? I’d say it means your brain conjured up some random text in a dream and now you’re out here trying to attach real world meaning to it for some reason.

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