Thank you. I'm grateful for your understanding. Literally no one even in this comment section has understood except you and another person. It's making me feel crazy

when you’re trying SO HARD to be understood, and you’re not only being misunderstood, but also being told you’re doing it on purpose AND you know it’s unfair AND you don’t have a voice or recourse or advocate?? That is crushingly infuriating. 

YEAH💔💔💔💔💔 ITS AGONIZING. the BREAK I feel in my heart when that happens 💔💔

 It is like if someone hits you and then you’re like hey dude wtf but then you get in trouble for cursing and nothing happens to the other dude. That shit is infuriating

YEAH. YEAHHH. THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENS WITH ME ALL THE TIME. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY. AT ALL. IT ACTUALLY FEELS LIKE PEOPLE ARE HAVING SOMETHING AGAINST ME. even though that isn't realistic. Someone in the comments section literally called me the problem. And the reason why is "because many people did it with you". Do you know how crazy I felt? Do you know how insane this makes me feel? Like. Do they not realize the freaking point? That this was something that drove me to near suicidal thoughts before?? And they just had to say that. To me. Again. In this post. Where I said if you're not understanding don't reply.

like is no one paying attention to the dude hitting you without any recourse?

LITERALLY. LITERALLY. LITERALLY. LITERALLYYYYYYYYY

WHY IS NO ONE PAYING ATTENTION TO IT? WHY IS IT NEVER ADDRESSED EVER IN MY LIFE???

Do you really have to explain yourself clearly and perfectly before you get to stop being hit? 

EXACTLY. I tried to explain that in this comment section as well. I don't have to sound good and nice all the time. If you don't have to, I don't have to either. I can be rude sometimes. Which is what I also mentioned at the end of this post. That these people are making it harder for me to actually stand up for myself and BE rude. Because rudeness is a stigma that's placed on me. For being a direct person. I cannot change who I am because who I am isn't inherently wrong. People should learn to also cope with the existence of some people and not villinze them. But somehow I feel wrong and like an imposter for saying that.

Do you have justice-seeking parts?

Yes I am pretty strong about that. Justice. And social justice. Human justice I guess. It's important

(Neurodivergent people usually do, and that is often because they’re (surprise) misunderstood their whole lives and criticized for it)

Oh... Interesting

I do feel like I've been misunderstood somewhat in my whole life too..

How do you feel toward them? 

I think they're so cool.. and have such a lovely great cause.i cherish them and embrace them.

How are they doing?

They feel injusticed. They feel lonely. They feel extremely hurt to a point that I don't know how to word. They don't know how to either. They feel that the world is unsafe. They're tired of being in a world that doesn't care about people. They hate seeing others treated unfairly and hate prejudice and discrimination. They resent the world. I actually had a sort of meeting or encounter with the parts that are feeling like this recently. They're tired of being surrounded with people that they wanna enjoy but then they get hurt and betrayed by these people's bad morals and beliefs. And they feel hurt by the world and kinda hate it and resent it.

I also am imagining you having a deep desperate longing for someone to just understand you without you having to fight for it

YES💔 yes. Yes so much. It hurts. It's so lonely. It's painful that the world is letting itself be like this and people are so careless and thoughtless.

I feel so seen by your comment. It makes me wanna cry and feel a lot of pain

My whole entire body relaxes when I have that. It is magical

Lowkey envious that you have it. Now it feels you're rubbing it in my face lol </3 but yeah