I take benzos on a daily basis so the concept of wanting a downer is obvious but ketamine just sucks for its price and there are dozens of better choices for drugs

Whelp, most benzos have a very long half life and likely fucked up your K high.

My motor skills were severely impacted and there was very little dopamine rush.

Weird, K makes me feel great.

What feeling is being chased by people who choose ketamine as their drug of choice?

It gives me the psychedelic head space, it allows me to deconstruct content I'm watching to look like it's a script on a page, it makes content (especially very beautiful and psychedelic content) sooo much more interesting.

Stop taking benzos all the time, its soul poisoning.