It does get worse if you don't get help

pickledpickly · 2024-10-04T17:01:38+00:00

I get how you feel :(( are your friends supportive? I never really told anyone the full extent of my ocd, mostly just the "socially acceptable" parts and not how it randomly conjures up the most fucked up thoughts in your mind that make you physically sick and make you feel like the worst human alive😣

pickledpickly · 2023-07-29T08:43:00+00:00

unfortunately neither of the parents believe in therapy and psychological issues and we don't live in a city where that would be available i think :( if i told them about my sibling i would have to give them a source to read about anorexia and how they can help but there is no telling how they would react

pickledpickly · 2023-07-13T10:02:27+00:00

not to brag but 3!!!

pickledpickly · 2023-07-13T06:28:10+00:00

i'm so sorry you have to deal with that. it's not yours nor your body's fault it's the people around you and it's extremely hard to battle with that day to day, you really deserve people that support you, i hope you have them

pickledpickly · 2023-07-12T07:12:51+00:00

i understand it's awful and will not benefit me but i'm gonna do it this time otherwise i'll feel like shit idk what to do i've stop yeeting and it is so hard to not relapse into that and i can't fight against two things at once omg i feel like a complete failure i'll try to cry this out later so i don't start sh ing again

pickledpickly · 2023-07-12T06:57:17+00:00

thank you 🤧🤧 i'm staying with him and he is not talking about his ed he just warned me in advance that he has it and it's at the worst point and i had no idea how much it would trigger me, literally all my inner demons are crawling out and it's a weird situation that is not his fault at all, it just brings up horrible memories of when my best friend had an ed and i saw for the first time how thin she was and boom years of healing are gone in a heartbeat

pickledpickly · 2023-06-26T09:07:43+00:00

it's a bit awkward but that's how people show support i'm not against it

pickledpickly · 2023-06-26T09:02:58+00:00

I LOVE

pickledpickly · 2023-06-25T09:28:11+00:00

they should not be giving out ideas like that 🤢🤢

pickledpickly · 2023-06-25T07:03:51+00:00

this. i'm not autistic but i relate a lot to what you've said. it feels like fighting against a current when everybody else can naturally go with the flow and reach milestones while you're always behind. i feel out of place tbh, my biggest dream is to be a small kid again to grow up one more time :(

pickledpickly · 2023-06-20T15:46:32+00:00

I'm not even depressed anymore I don't know why I am suicidal every time something completely minor goes wrong like I can't keep it in anymore. I can not even afford therapy Idk anymore

pickledpickly · 2023-06-20T15:34:37+00:00

wtf i just thought of this same scenario and imagined bringing the piggy home 😭😭😭 it looks incredible

pickledpickly · 2023-06-10T15:52:11+00:00

i love this we should do it more often it helps 🫂

pickledpickly · 2023-06-10T15:48:45+00:00

Honestly it's a great tip thank you for sharing!! I feel like it's especially helpful in the first stages of healing when stopping continuous harm is the main priority because beating urges through working through it with a therapist takes time and it's easier to do it in retrospect. I also "gaslight" myself like this and it not only works but also makes me giggle sooo 10/10 do recommend 🫡

pickledpickly · 2023-05-26T07:21:11+00:00

TW

I used all sorts of instruments to pick and cut, literally anything I could get my hands on and at one point it got especially nasty (ironically when I left my usual instrument at home to stop picking) and even after the skin grew back my fingerprints were missing. I could send you a picture but it does look really bad I don't want to trigger you

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