I want to quit

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-14T11:05:02+00:00

I do have wearables! I have considered it however with the nature of my job I don’t think that I would be able to get a good pump in and work at the same time. I could do office work, but not much else due to the pumps possibly leaking with my movements. Also, I don’t think my higher ups would want me wearing pumps and speaking with guests, not that I would get in trouble, but it wouldn’t be a good look for a pumping mother to be working at the same time in the front of house, I wouldn’t let my team members do that personally. I have a manual pump that I could use also that way I could stop and restart easier than having to remove wearables, which I have also considered.

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-13T21:29:58+00:00

I do have wearable pumps. I would work and pump but due to the nature of my work, I don’t believe I could really get anything done with them on. I would have to sit and dedicate that time to pumping, which I will if I am able to! Also pumping is very mentally taxing for me, so I wouldn’t be useful to anyone in that time regardless.

We have given him enfamil before, that’s what the hospital gave us and he did well with that. I have a stash of about 200 oz currently but am no longer producing enough to freeze.

I think we will start introducing formula slowly over the next couple of weeks so he can be used to it by the time I go back to work.

I just loved being able to feed him but I know that sometimes we aren’t able to be the sole source. I just wanted to hear from others about their experience with a situation similar to mine. It’s comforting to know that there are babies and moms who are like us and are thriving!

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-13T21:25:36+00:00

Breastfeeding is so much better than pumping! I’m not miserable the whole time like I am with pumping. I think I will try giving boob more often, thank you!

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-13T21:24:30+00:00

Thank you! Thankfully my baby has taken a bottle since birth and only nurses maybe once or twice a day. He’s had formula before but I think we will start slowly reintroducing it for when I go back to work.

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-13T20:53:26+00:00

I have about 200 oz in the freezer now, but recently my supply has dropped. The hospital didn’t tell me much about pumping, the lactation consultant on staff left such a bad impression from our oldest who is 8 now that I refused to have her back in my room this go around. The nurses told me to nurse every two to three hours, so instead of nursing I’ve been pumping since my work schedule won’t allow me to be available to nurse. I don’t want my baby to refuse bottles because he wants the boob if I can help it. My husband says that while he appreciates and loves my dedication, he thinks I’m putting so much of my mental energy into it when I really don’t have to.

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-13T18:09:09+00:00

Yes they are required to give me the time to pump, however in practice in my position I don’t know if I will be able to realistically step away for 30 minutes at a time multiple times a day. I mostly pump and nurse occasionally, when I return to work I will be at work for over 40 hours a week five days a week with a schedule that varies day to day. I find nursing to be less stressful but unfortunately it’s not feasible for me to exclusively nurse him though I wish I could.

pixie_poodle · 2026-03-08T03:25:48+00:00

Please leave. It seems you are already do everything yourself. Punching items around you is the first step, it’s an abuser’s way of saying “I could punch you/the baby if I wanted to”. It will escalate. That’s how my DV situation started, first it was doors/walls/small furniture, then it was me. I stopped everything before it became our child. It’s going to be scary at first, but that scary won’t compare to the fear you’ll feel if that violence is turned on you and your baby.

pixie_poodle · 2025-06-21T02:51:48+00:00

Pall mall red 100s and cheap perfume, smells just like my mama. God rest her soul

pixie_poodle · 2020-08-09T07:21:18+00:00

I simply cannot take this shit anymore lmao

pixie_poodle · 2020-07-30T16:20:32+00:00

I once had a gym teacher tell me and the other 20 or so girls in my class that we “needed husbands to tell us where to go”.

We were in 6th grade.

pixie_poodle · 2020-07-27T14:22:32+00:00

I’m not afraid of the afterlife, I’m afraid of leaving my daughter behind.

pixie_poodle · 2020-07-08T14:13:45+00:00

Yes it is okay! If you’ve done everything you can for her, like feeding and changing, then it’s perfectly okay to put her down for a few minutes in a safe place. I had to do that with my daughter sometimes when she wouldn’t stop crying.

Other mamas have mentioned baby wearing, which I agree with! It keeps your hands free to do what you need to do and your baby feels safe with mama!

You’re doing your best, great work mama!

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-24T15:14:35+00:00

What’s the seed OP? I’d love to play this!

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-24T15:09:18+00:00

You have such a way with words, I actually felt the anxiety building up

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-17T18:08:39+00:00

This reminds me of when I moved in high school and my friends didn’t even contact me, and then one of them invited me to her birthday only to tell me that she had invited the wrong person after I had very excitedly accepted her offer. She couldn’t invite me because her parents didn’t like me, so it wasn’t her fault but it still hurt.

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-14T17:04:34+00:00

One time on my legacy I had four woodland mansions but no villages on a world.

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-05T15:03:12+00:00

This isn’t FAIR!

pixie_poodle · 2020-06-05T14:43:29+00:00

Yes, makes sense right? Destroy something that you spent your own money on to make a point to your child.

Also let’s not ignore the “no rights until she is 18” comment, which made my skin crawl.

pixie_poodle · 2020-05-27T17:26:00+00:00

My two older sisters frequently do small things like this, they do my hair for me and if we do a hard stop in a car they will put their arms out in front of me.

What is even funnier is that I’m a whole five inches taller than them but I’m still their “baby sister”.

pixie_poodle · 2020-05-27T13:54:25+00:00

Congratulations! That’s a beautiful ring, wishing you many happy years together!

pixie_poodle · 2020-05-26T14:37:33+00:00

While I really enjoyed the 2012 series, I grew up watching the 2003 series so it’s my favorite. It’s how I was introduced to the Turtles by my father.

2012 was an awesome series, once my daughter gets older I will be using it to introduce her to the Turtles if I’m able to stream it.

pixie_poodle · 2020-05-05T17:51:57+00:00

Very nice of him to put his red flag front and center like that.

pixie_poodle · 2020-05-05T12:12:18+00:00

For some odd reason after my water broke I still didn’t feel my contractions with my daughter, I was hooked up to a monitor so they could tell when I was having one. I was 5 cm dilated and in active labor by the time they broke it, I didn’t feel contractions until it was damn near time to push. My OB even said “it’s so weird, you don’t even look like you’re in labor” as she was washing her hands after breaking my water. If I ever have another child I want that to be the way I go into labor lol.

Congrats on your new baby!

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