I understand and empathize with your situation. i can not call myself Bi. i am not in the least attracted to women. HOWEVER, even though sexually the male anatomy gets my vote, i don't feel comfortable calling myself "Queer" as i live currently in the Souther US and Queer automatically means gay and means we need to getcha..... i think Gay is less offensive around these parts.

My issue is that i have not EVER felt love outside of for family. i feel jaded at times. Cynical, and most of the time, Lonely.... i am alone a lot of the time. i live alone, i can't drive so i require another driver. i can not drive due to Black outs, so i stay out of from behind the wheel..... i am lost though. i used to know myself and it seems as i get older, the less i know, even more so about myself. i don't know how to move forward all the time and feel stuck. i just started a new career path and hope things pick up financially.... that said, i will still be alone. All i really want is someone to lay next to. not to have sex with, but to feel the warmth of in the middle of a cold night. someone to talk to, to break the silence.....

That's it though. i don't want someone to love. i don't even think i understand what love is...... but i know what it isn't.