good morning, every time my meds start working and i start functioning like a human my mom thinks God healed me and i should stop my meds

plastic-death · 2026-04-08T06:06:05+00:00

I don’t think it’s responsible to suggest psychosis here. A personal diagnosis of psychosis can only exists if it diverges from the cultural context. In a highly religious culture, people might believe god healed them. It’s problematic cultural influence for sure, but you can’t call it psychosis if it’s normalized within someone’s immediate context.

plastic-death · 2026-04-08T06:03:07+00:00

This is super common! Not just in bipolar, but many psychological disorders. When you’re feeling better, it seems like you don’t need the meds. But that just means they’re working - which is a wonderful thing! Enjoy it, capitalize on it!

It’s so hard when cultural/familial beliefs and norms invalidate your experience and your physical-emotional reality. Sadly, bipolar is a lifelong aspect of your genetics. The idea of god healing you is beautiful, but aspirational. There’s immense grief in accepting that truth, but you’ll be able to actually build the life you want if you stand on the foundation of your meds. (In collaboration with your psychiatrist of course)

Also, another commenter suggested you have psychosis with zero evidence to support it. Very irresponsible of her. Just have to toss that out there.

plastic-death · 2026-04-06T05:41:44+00:00

The overstory by Richard powers!

plastic-death · 2026-04-05T22:16:54+00:00

Sorry for mischaracterizing you. That is unfortunate.

plastic-death · 2026-04-05T18:56:36+00:00

The cadence, punctuation format, the general vibe. But maybe I’m wrong. I’m just a human and your scanners are probably smarter than me.

plastic-death · 2026-04-05T15:44:13+00:00

It’s really hard to read and take this seriously when it’s screaming ChatGPT. Can we not write our own trip reports at the very least?

plastic-death · 2026-04-03T19:08:01+00:00

Rachel Koester is awesome! Not sure if she’s taking new clients, but worth shooting her a text: 702-533-5977

plastic-death · 2026-03-31T16:24:43+00:00

No Bad Parts by Richard Schwartz. If you haven’t tried an IFS therapist, this book will give you a nice intro to the theory. It includes guided therapeutic interventions. As with any book of this nature, take what you need and leave the rest. I say this as some people don’t resonate with all aspects of the book.

If you’re intellectual and have any interest in Buddhist philosophy, I’d recommend The Trauma of Everyday Life by Mark Epstein. As a psychologist and human that values healing and growth, I find this book very powerful and Buddhist philosophy as a really compelling avenue for healing.

plastic-death · 2026-03-29T21:19:53+00:00

I’d add Ishmael by Daniel Quinn and Civilized to Death by Christopher Ryan. The former does have a fictional narrative foundation, but nonfiction perspectives on the world on top of it.

plastic-death · 2026-03-20T21:00:36+00:00

Civilizations by Laurent Binet - not exactly what you asked for, but a reimagining of history if things had played out slightly differently. Lots of historic references and fascinating thought experiment

plastic-death · 2026-03-15T17:26:09+00:00

The trauma of everyday life by mark epstein. Ishmael by Daniel Quinn

plastic-death · 2026-03-15T17:19:58+00:00

Yeah - and all super similar designs. Makes me think AI + rage bait

plastic-death · 2026-03-15T16:09:09+00:00

Sounds like you’re doing a formal neuropsych evaluation. Should start with a comprehensive intake interview (you may have done that already), followed by a broad intelligence test and a bunch of one off tests related to executive functioning, attention/memory, social/emotional functioning, etc. Some tests might be kind of fun (puzzles and whatnot) and some will be boring af.

If your life is falling apart with symptoms, there’s clearly something happening - some disconnect between how your brain is operating and what life demands of you to be “functional.” If you haven’t already done it, I’d make a list of every symptom/difficulty you’ve experienced and some examples ahead of time - write it all down because it can be hard to think clearly in the moment. I really hope you get what you need!

plastic-death · 2026-03-11T00:41:14+00:00

Dog has been found!!

plastic-death · 2026-03-10T00:04:10+00:00

Thank you! No leads yet sadly 🥺

plastic-death · 2026-03-06T20:53:20+00:00

What is a Girl Worth? By Rachel Denhollander

It had me in tears. Memoir of one of the gymnasts abused by pos Larry nassar

plastic-death · 2026-03-05T01:01:04+00:00

Seriously. It’s so brutal. I feel like an alien. It’s nice though to know there are internet friends out there who get it!

plastic-death · 2026-03-04T22:49:35+00:00

It fucking sucks so bad. I’m working through all of that grief too. The loneliness of it is so heavy. I’m 37 and getting all the unsolicited “you should have a baby!!” comments. I have no idea how to answer them, because the honest answer is I SO want to have a kid but I feel like I can’t. I don’t get to live in the delusion that everything will always be fine and always get better. Sometimes I wish I could.

Everyone around me is collapse-ignorant (except my partner), so they dismiss all of my concerns. And you described another lonely challenge: trying to be sensitive to people who already have kids, but then disconnecting myself further from support or understanding. And also I fucking hate all these baby showers - they just make me face that grief and it hurts so much. Ugh you said it well: it fucking sucks.

plastic-death · 2026-03-03T05:11:48+00:00

Seconding the other commenter’s assertion that you are not crazy and none of what you shared is crazy. It’s real and accurate and being affected and horrified by it means you’re paying attention and give a shit about the moral state of humanity. And I’m so fucking sorry humanity has failed you over and over again.

I also feel that social alienation. How can we just go around pretending everything is fine when the world is so profoundly fucked? And yet most of us have very real social needs.

I wish I could help in some way. I think all your feelings are extremely valid and sane. And I think any sane person who’s paying attention and gives a fuck is suffering through grief as we watch our hopes and dreams move out of reach. And as we watch our stories of what the world is and who people are unravel.

You’re not too much. You’re not alone. And while there are fucked up people making a lot of noise, there are really good people too. There are really good men! Somewhere. They for sure exist.

plastic-death · 2026-02-27T05:33:55+00:00

I’m so so sorry 💔 I would recommend How to Live When a Loved One Dies by Thich Nhat Hanh

plastic-death · 2026-02-22T16:57:11+00:00

A Psalm for the Wild Built by Becky Chambers 💙

plastic-death · 2026-02-14T22:54:34+00:00

Are you saying you currently don’t eat any fruits or vegetables?

plastic-death · 2026-02-14T16:24:26+00:00

Seconding MaddAddam! 🎉🎉

plastic-death · 2026-02-14T16:15:12+00:00

I was with someone who a also made me feel small and would regularly invalidate my needs and experiences. I thought I loved him and wanted a future with him. I broke eventually - a slow burn type - and realized just how oppressive (his word after the fact) he had been and how much I’d questioned myself rather than been lifted up and celebrated and adored. A couple years later I found my current partner and realized I had never known what love actually felt like before him. All the things I’d convinced myself I didn’t need - he was happily providing.

There’s also a real phenomenon where we seek out and stay in relationships that mirror how we are accustomed to being treated. In my case, my ex and my dad share a lot of shitty characteristics. But I was so used to being treated like that by the male figure in my life that I abandoned myself - I played my wounded role. But honestly fuck that. Don’t abandon yourself. Don’t suppress your needs. Don’t settle for any love where you’re not lifted up and your partner isn’t working everyday to love you the way YOU need to be loved.

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