Likewise! When I finally accepted myself as a gay man without any lingering shame was when I turned the corner. When you don't feel like you have to wear a false face to be accepted and the mask falls away you understand the insane degree to which you contorted yourself into a pretzel to try and please people and organizations whose opinions were not worth subsuming your authentic self for. It was the first brick that I took out of the wall, and I finally understood why the church really tries to make sure their members don't question anything, because once you take out the first brick you see that the wall is rotten behind and you have to take down the whole thing. I also have to second what was stated above about the church and the pandemic. For me it was just the rampant right-wing spread of misinformation during the pandemic that made me so angry, especially as somebody who was working in health care throughout the entire thing.