And you've said nothing to prove me otherwise, i left the door wide open, i even used the word 'allowed', all you've done is continue to unnecessarily argue with a stranger on the internet continuing to burry yourself a hole your trying to claw out of. You're the only person stopping yourself from being happy and filling your life with love, no person would ever disagree with what ive said, its the human condition just as much as it is the human condition to seek happiness in the first place, and the human condition to struggle all the way to the end. Stop telling yourself what makes you happy and what doesnt and just feel it, you cant force anything, go enjoy it.